Hi again Lukee,
You have many questions!
This is good.
Let me assure you that if you're seeking prayer, it means you're Christian!
It's difficult to be one nowadays when most are not.
Don't let that fool you. The world is lost and doesn't even know it.
You don't have to feel anything or do anything to be a Christian.
All you have to "feel" or "do" is the desire to know and love our Lord, Jesus Christ.
My prayers are with you and also those of the readers of your request.
Not everyone posts, but many read.
Wondering