My ultimate hope is to overcome believing thing's, something that's difficult to do in a world like this. My one and only dream is for my daughter to forgive me for not being in her life enough. My fear is that I might stop learning & die in misery.
The simple truth is,unless God has elected you, you will die without Christ and burn for eternity because you are a sinner and deserving of that. If God has elected you, then You will eventually succumb to the calling and turn from your wickedness.
Jesus Came into the world and Died on the cross for the world's sin. There is more literature supporting and agreeing with this statement then anything else in the world.
The reason why I believe is because I have faith. And faith comes by hearing the Word of God. My suggestion to you is to open a bible (With an open mind) at the book of John and read through to jude, taking notes of what stands out to you, prayerfully asking Jesus to reveal Himself to you if He in fact is real. Unless you do this then there is no hope and your mind is closed off and you will die without Christ.
You need Christ to enter heaven, The bible says you must be born again to enter the Kingdom of God.
Look at the world around you, what is the point of all this? There is absolutely no point unless God is the centre of the equation. You live, work, save, retire then die, and someone else gets to plunder your savings and its all vanity. You are better off using drugs and alcohol and enjoying what little time you have until you eventually expire.
However, With God there is purpose! Now you have eternity to look forward to, a Hope! This life now becomes a training ground for you to build that relationship with Jesus, and when you enter into the Kingdom you will have treasure's stored up waiting for you. However you might "feel" about Christianity we don't care. There is only one truth in life, and that's Jesus!
All religions claim to have the truth, but Jesus never claimed to have the truth, He claimed He alone WAS the Truth!
This is a sad reality of the world - That people die without Christ when all the information was right there in front of them... Then it's too late.
If Jesus is not real and you believe, then it does not matter.
But.... If Jesus is real and you don't believe then you're going to hell when you die.
God Bless.