Christ_empowered
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- Oct 23, 2010
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its not easy to do. I pray to become more Christ-centered and others-focused. The Lord has brought me a long, long way from where I was when I first got saved, 5 years ago. I (apparently...) no matter meet the criteria for narcissistic personality disorder, which I guess means that...as who I am now....I still struggle with self, but its not up to a pathological level. Always a good thing, lol.
And yet, I find that putting the other person 1st is a challenge. Interestingly enough, the end of my NPD overlaps with (huge, miraculous) strides towards "recovery from 'treatment' " (heavy shock, in my case), so...there's also the challenge of learning how to be, how to do things, as a whole new person, after having been obviously, severely brain damaged for a while there.
I'm blessed to have my parents. 5 years into my Walk with The Lord, they even take me on trips with them. They see change, they also see -genuine- need (did I mention the Bipolar or Schizophrenia?), and they've seen fit to reconcile with me, despite...everything that came before. Praise God for His goodness!
OK. So, I do need to die to self daily. I also need to (somehow...) build an adequate social life, because social isolation clearly is -not- a good thing.
Thanks.
And yet, I find that putting the other person 1st is a challenge. Interestingly enough, the end of my NPD overlaps with (huge, miraculous) strides towards "recovery from 'treatment' " (heavy shock, in my case), so...there's also the challenge of learning how to be, how to do things, as a whole new person, after having been obviously, severely brain damaged for a while there.
I'm blessed to have my parents. 5 years into my Walk with The Lord, they even take me on trips with them. They see change, they also see -genuine- need (did I mention the Bipolar or Schizophrenia?), and they've seen fit to reconcile with me, despite...everything that came before. Praise God for His goodness!
OK. So, I do need to die to self daily. I also need to (somehow...) build an adequate social life, because social isolation clearly is -not- a good thing.
Thanks.