Christ_empowered
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No really.
At 38 I find I’m normal not homely not sick or sickly or even patched up…
Reconciled to my long suffering parents and in a nice modest place owned by family. I even have a killer view!
I’ve written about it for over 10 years here at cfnet. Was I delusional then? Wishful thinking? I dunno
I think a lot of it was about HIV. 20 years ago I got infected in an urban area when affluent gay men got treatment and sympathy and flamers like who I was apparently just got ridicule and condemnation…
Especially from doctors and the other gays. No treatment. The vitamin thing was partially inspired by Duesberg the idea that free radicals are the issue not HIV.
I dunno Matthew 6:33 applies now more than ever. I’m surrounded by more open persecution and hostility and contempt. I don’t know if it’s a new form of persecution or if it’s just open and harsher but not really that different. Ugh 
I don’t know how to do anything now though. Can’t support myself. Parents are thankfully kind and able to provide resources support and also a much much much needed barrier between me and the hostile elements of my community.
God is Good. God is Love.
I have no one to hang out with and no way to work and everything I have is my parents…
Blessed
Friends were fake anyway and some people cannot work and my parents are amazing
and…
Where to from here?
At 38 I find I’m normal not homely not sick or sickly or even patched up…
Reconciled to my long suffering parents and in a nice modest place owned by family. I even have a killer view!
I’ve written about it for over 10 years here at cfnet. Was I delusional then? Wishful thinking? I dunno
I think a lot of it was about HIV. 20 years ago I got infected in an urban area when affluent gay men got treatment and sympathy and flamers like who I was apparently just got ridicule and condemnation…
Especially from doctors and the other gays. No treatment. The vitamin thing was partially inspired by Duesberg the idea that free radicals are the issue not HIV.
I dunno
Matthew 6:33 applies now more than ever. I’m surrounded by more open persecution and hostility and contempt. I don’t know if it’s a new form of persecution or if it’s just open and harsher but not really that different. Ugh I don’t know how to do anything now though. Can’t support myself. Parents are thankfully kind and able to provide resources support and also a much much much needed barrier between me and the hostile elements of my community.
God is Good. God is Love.
I have no one to hang out with and no way to work and everything I have is my parents…
Blessed
Friends were fake anyway and some people cannot work and my parents are amazing
and…Where to from here?