Hi, my name is Ryan and I just turned 20. I've grown up in a Christian family and gone to church most of my life. I always believed in God and most of my friends did, but about 4 years ago I started drinking and smoking and at that point I kinda lost faith. I'm guessing this was just because all my friends were either atheist or didn't believe in anything, and this rubbed off on me (not saying I've ever been atheist).
Anyway, I stopped doing all that recently and I've been trying to believe in God but nothing is working. I started going to church again, only hang out with my friends that are Christian, and always pray about getting faith but I always have doubt. I'm kinda lost and really want to believe but for some reason no matter how much I read about Jesus and God I'm not convinced. I'm not getting any feelings or assurance like I used to. I always just think 'how could he really be there?' and can never convince myself that He actually is. But when I talk to my Christian friends about it I can tell they are positive He is up there and then I think 'how could he not be there if so many people have devoted their lives to Him?' I know Christianity is based almost entirely on faith and that's just my biggest problem right now, I don't have any.
Thanks a lot for any help!
-Ryan
Anyway, I stopped doing all that recently and I've been trying to believe in God but nothing is working. I started going to church again, only hang out with my friends that are Christian, and always pray about getting faith but I always have doubt. I'm kinda lost and really want to believe but for some reason no matter how much I read about Jesus and God I'm not convinced. I'm not getting any feelings or assurance like I used to. I always just think 'how could he really be there?' and can never convince myself that He actually is. But when I talk to my Christian friends about it I can tell they are positive He is up there and then I think 'how could he not be there if so many people have devoted their lives to Him?' I know Christianity is based almost entirely on faith and that's just my biggest problem right now, I don't have any.
Thanks a lot for any help!
-Ryan