Christ_empowered
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- Oct 23, 2010
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yup yup. me, yet again. I have a -much- better life, 7 years into a meaningful walk with THE LORD, than I ever did before. true story. and...
I dunno. I don't think I have Schizophrenia. there's that. I think maybe I did...I was sensitive to pot, but smoked anyway, as a teen because...well, maybe to fit in, in part because...what else did I have to do, anyway? the various stressors in my life, plus marijuana, plus my questionable eating habits (more due to -intense- , unrelenting fear and a sense of doom than an actual 'disorder,' per se) all kinda combined, so...
wow. wow. anyway...
'round these parts, I'm regarded as a 'middle-class loser.' I get made fun of for saying, a long time ago (before my genuine repentance, actually) that "God healed me!," and...and...
-sigh- i don't think "schizophrenia" is real, anyway. nobody can spot it on a brain scan or blood test, the shrinks always want more tax payer money for "treating mental illness," while generating more fraud and waste in their wake, and...
yeah. i don't believe in 'losers,' either. God doesn't create junk, and every.single.person is created in HIS image, amen. as for the social class thing...
blah. My parents aren't rich, but they're not middle-middle class now, either. That's THE LORD blessing them and me, too. I'm thankful. I see now...upward mobility, it kinda...brings out the demon in people, it seems. oh well.
their social class, and our recent true, honest to goodness reconciliation = a much, much better (albeit very modest) life for me, right now. I'm thankful. and...
I dunno. I'd like to -not- deal with Mental Health, Inc. I'd like to -not- be taunted all the time because of a shady past. I'd like...on and on it goes. But I don't have much in the way of -vision- for a future, because...
where to work, really? doing...what? for...how much $$$? I have been made healthy and bright eyed and normal and far, far less childish and prideful, since I came to know THE LORD, 7 years ago. obviously, still a work in progress, but...
He's done an amazing job of putting off the old and putting on the new. sad thing is: I cannot support myself. I'm labeled as "Schizophrenic," and I'm pretty sure people would harm me, physically, if it wasn't for my family (long story).
so...I don't have much vision for, say, the next 5 years. I am increasingly grateful for His work in my life. and so...
I pray His -perfect will- for me, because...Christ died -for me- .
thanks.
I dunno. I don't think I have Schizophrenia. there's that. I think maybe I did...I was sensitive to pot, but smoked anyway, as a teen because...well, maybe to fit in, in part because...what else did I have to do, anyway? the various stressors in my life, plus marijuana, plus my questionable eating habits (more due to -intense- , unrelenting fear and a sense of doom than an actual 'disorder,' per se) all kinda combined, so...
wow. wow. anyway...
'round these parts, I'm regarded as a 'middle-class loser.' I get made fun of for saying, a long time ago (before my genuine repentance, actually) that "God healed me!," and...and...
-sigh- i don't think "schizophrenia" is real, anyway. nobody can spot it on a brain scan or blood test, the shrinks always want more tax payer money for "treating mental illness," while generating more fraud and waste in their wake, and...
yeah. i don't believe in 'losers,' either. God doesn't create junk, and every.single.person is created in HIS image, amen. as for the social class thing...
blah. My parents aren't rich, but they're not middle-middle class now, either. That's THE LORD blessing them and me, too. I'm thankful. I see now...upward mobility, it kinda...brings out the demon in people, it seems. oh well.
their social class, and our recent true, honest to goodness reconciliation = a much, much better (albeit very modest) life for me, right now. I'm thankful. and...
I dunno. I'd like to -not- deal with Mental Health, Inc. I'd like to -not- be taunted all the time because of a shady past. I'd like...on and on it goes. But I don't have much in the way of -vision- for a future, because...
where to work, really? doing...what? for...how much $$$? I have been made healthy and bright eyed and normal and far, far less childish and prideful, since I came to know THE LORD, 7 years ago. obviously, still a work in progress, but...
He's done an amazing job of putting off the old and putting on the new. sad thing is: I cannot support myself. I'm labeled as "Schizophrenic," and I'm pretty sure people would harm me, physically, if it wasn't for my family (long story).
so...I don't have much vision for, say, the next 5 years. I am increasingly grateful for His work in my life. and so...
I pray His -perfect will- for me, because...Christ died -for me- .
thanks.
