At only twenty-eight years old I have experienced things and have been in situations that many never experience in a lifetime. At the age of 19 reality set in and my search for meaning, truth and my purpose really began. I was in college and seeking a fulfilling career with many hopes and dreams. However, it wasn’t long until my hopes became doubts and my dreams suffocated in reality.
My past had caught up to me and my present life seemed meaningless with no purpose. I was alone, entangled with my own thoughts, I had no guidance and I was angry at the world because of the lies I have been fed that left me empty. I didn’t know how to be filled or what to fill myself with so I turned to drugs, alcohol, women, music; really anything that I could find some sort of comfort in. I was simply tired of feeling rejected, used-up, thrown away, worthless and empty yet full of pain. I guess you are always full of something whether spiritual or worldly. Thus, the more empty I felt the more I filled myself with worldly wisdom and mind altering substances. I couldn’t figure out why the more I tried to feel better and be successful and work harder at my previous failed attempts, I felt worse. I found myself in jails, institutions and quite frankly questioning my existence. Programs like NA and AA; rehabs and counseling centers never told me the truth about addictions and how to be free from the guilt and shame. These type of programs are based on one having a disease of addiction. However, there must be a cure for hopelessness, worthlessness, rejection, bitterness, pride, emptiness, anger and lack of purpose. I found the answer in a faith based addictions program where the focus was Jesus Christ… The Way, the Truth and the Life [John 14:6.]
I was searching for freedom from myself not bondage of dealing with myself. [John 8:32] says that the Truth will set you free. Therefore, if Jesus is the way, the TRUTH and the life and the TRUTH will set you free, then Jesus Christ is the answer to life. When this stopped being knowledge and was pulled down into my heart, that’s when the cure, not for my addiction but for my life of habitual sin, became reality. At that point I realized drugs, alcohol and immorality was not the problem but sin provoked by the world and the devil is the problem. I was saved at 13 but by my lifestyle you couldn’t tell. I was so entangled with a yoke of bondage I was having doubts of my salvation. The Lord allowed many situations in my life to bring me to the point of surrendering into His will.
Many have asked, “Do you think a loving God would put you through that stuff?†My response is simple. “I put myself through ‘that stuff’ and because of Gods love he allowed it to happen so that I would turn to Him and experience His agape love through a personal relationship in Jesus Christ.†My desire is to spread absolute Truth of the grace and mercy of God through personal testimony and teachings from Gods Word. Contrary to popular belief of religious views, Christianity is a lifestyle not a religion. I just want to be a proper example of the Lord and represent the Almighty King properly. I do not deserve such an opportunity to testify of the grace of God. However, the Lord has charged me with the responsibility of doing just that. I hope you enjoy THE INTERCESSION and that it will have a profound impact on the saved and lost as we all seek purpose, meaning, understanding, and wisdom to what/Whom our existence is really all about. My mission, objective and purpose is to use the gift-set, talents, testimony, heritage and generational time period to reach the unreachable when the Impossible becomes a mission for Christ.
My past had caught up to me and my present life seemed meaningless with no purpose. I was alone, entangled with my own thoughts, I had no guidance and I was angry at the world because of the lies I have been fed that left me empty. I didn’t know how to be filled or what to fill myself with so I turned to drugs, alcohol, women, music; really anything that I could find some sort of comfort in. I was simply tired of feeling rejected, used-up, thrown away, worthless and empty yet full of pain. I guess you are always full of something whether spiritual or worldly. Thus, the more empty I felt the more I filled myself with worldly wisdom and mind altering substances. I couldn’t figure out why the more I tried to feel better and be successful and work harder at my previous failed attempts, I felt worse. I found myself in jails, institutions and quite frankly questioning my existence. Programs like NA and AA; rehabs and counseling centers never told me the truth about addictions and how to be free from the guilt and shame. These type of programs are based on one having a disease of addiction. However, there must be a cure for hopelessness, worthlessness, rejection, bitterness, pride, emptiness, anger and lack of purpose. I found the answer in a faith based addictions program where the focus was Jesus Christ… The Way, the Truth and the Life [John 14:6.]
I was searching for freedom from myself not bondage of dealing with myself. [John 8:32] says that the Truth will set you free. Therefore, if Jesus is the way, the TRUTH and the life and the TRUTH will set you free, then Jesus Christ is the answer to life. When this stopped being knowledge and was pulled down into my heart, that’s when the cure, not for my addiction but for my life of habitual sin, became reality. At that point I realized drugs, alcohol and immorality was not the problem but sin provoked by the world and the devil is the problem. I was saved at 13 but by my lifestyle you couldn’t tell. I was so entangled with a yoke of bondage I was having doubts of my salvation. The Lord allowed many situations in my life to bring me to the point of surrendering into His will.
Many have asked, “Do you think a loving God would put you through that stuff?†My response is simple. “I put myself through ‘that stuff’ and because of Gods love he allowed it to happen so that I would turn to Him and experience His agape love through a personal relationship in Jesus Christ.†My desire is to spread absolute Truth of the grace and mercy of God through personal testimony and teachings from Gods Word. Contrary to popular belief of religious views, Christianity is a lifestyle not a religion. I just want to be a proper example of the Lord and represent the Almighty King properly. I do not deserve such an opportunity to testify of the grace of God. However, the Lord has charged me with the responsibility of doing just that. I hope you enjoy THE INTERCESSION and that it will have a profound impact on the saved and lost as we all seek purpose, meaning, understanding, and wisdom to what/Whom our existence is really all about. My mission, objective and purpose is to use the gift-set, talents, testimony, heritage and generational time period to reach the unreachable when the Impossible becomes a mission for Christ.
