Haha, yes, that is what I was worried about. I've read (or at least started) Genesis a bunch of times, and I think I've gotten through Revelation, but everything in between is uncharted territory!
I think I'll have to stick with my 60 year old family Bible for now. It very much looks its age, but if I bought a new one, I think it'd have to be a Spanish one, and I'd need to take a look at the versions to decide whether I could handle the more antiquated one. I've been trying to read some 16th century Spanish mysticism and the language is wild.
Thank you for the suggestions, and have a Merry Christmas everyone!
That is fantastic advice, thank you. You'd be surprised at how difficult it can be to know how to pray even if you do believe in God, though! That part I'm only figuring out slowly, probably because the focus is generally on petitionary prayer instead of contemplative prayer, and I'm much more comfortable with the latter.
Prayer is a very good idea, though (if I don't completely misinterpret any response), since I am definitely in a tricky situation. Starting as an inerrantist and eventually moving away from that position as a person of faith has got to be hard enough, but falling all the way down the rabbit hole of Biblical errancy as a nonbeliever and then realizing, "Wait, maybe there's something there after all" is the very height of insanity. I can't and won't adopt a literalist view, but... I do want to come back to the faith. I just need to make sure I can in a way that's both intellectually honest and not complete heresy. I think it's possible--I can believe in miracles and Christ as God is not too big a jump for me, but I'm a firm believer in historical context and Scripture having actual human authors who had actual motives and prejudices, up to and including the Apostles, and that is going to be hard to untangle without everything falling apart. So I get to desperately search for footholds right now.
I did go to an Episcopalian service last night and do plan to go back. If I'm ever comfortable accepting communion, it'll be time to change my status here, but that's going to take a while.
Glad you like that. Some things on prayer that I've found that might be worth considering. One thing is that Jesus said for us to call God Father. Apparently the more correct translation is even less formal, calling Him "Daddy" or "dada." If these things are worth considering then coming to God with the same attitude you'd come to you own dad might be a good start for aproaching prayer. Both the respect you would have coming to your own dad, but also the love you know that comes from your dad influence how you approach your dad. If you can imagine God in a simular way it might make it easier to talk to God about any thing. Petitions; joys, sorrows and thanks; praise and contemplative thoughts; even asking God for direction when you don't know what to do, or even ask for help about. That last one asking for God's will and His direction is really important I think, but for me it's been a slow realization about this because I never understood His will, so I didn't know if I was following it or not. So I've come to a conclusion that my understanding is second to my trust. If I trust God then I don't need to always understand everything. Understanding worth it, and very good. But trust in God is of higher value.
Second thing to keep in mind with prayer is that God is smart and in control. I've heard of at least a few tips and tricks for prayer in order to get what you want. Follow the formula and you can get what you want sort of thinking. If at all possible when (or if) you hear of these methods of prayer, consider what they say that has merit (if anything), and keep in mind that God is smarter then us as well as really in control. So be sincere and stay humble.
Third thought is about listening. Or even being quiet before God. I don't know much about this aspect of prayer, but I think it's worth considering and looking into. The best I can think about it is like being silent with a friend near by. Sometimes words aren't needed. Trying to clear our mind and be near God while saying nothing might be like it.
One more thing about prayer is from my Grandma regarding the prayer Jesus taught to pray. If you keep these things in mind it might give more thoughts on other things to include in our prayers.
The prayer as I know it:
"Our Father, who art in Heaven, hollowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us today our daily bread, and forgive us our sins, as we forgive those who've sinned against us. Lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. For Thine is the Kingdom, the Power, and the Glory forever. Amen."
As my grandma taught it, she said that the first part of the prayer was not just praying for God's name to be honored, His Kingdom to come, and for His will; but possibly that that was also (or instead) recoginizing that God's name is Honored, His Kingdom has come. And on earth and in Heaven His will is done. The second part of the prayer is for us, so that we are keeping with the first part honoring God, following Him, and being in His Kingdom. First asking for our daily bread, which I've always heard mean providing for our daily needs. But from my grandma, she pointed out that Jesus has said He is the bread of Life. Suggesting that asking for our daily bread is also (or instead) meaning to ask for Jesus in us daily. Then forgive our sins and as we forgive those who sin against us. Jesus already taught more on this, emphizing that we are forgiven by God, only if we forgive as well. Also asking to not be tempted and to be saved from evil is part asking God to guard our hearts from sinning, as well as potentially taking us out of those situtions that have evil in them, or delivering us through those instances that are evil and wrong, or evil and trying to harm us.
I wish I could say it the way I was told by my grandma, but it was several years ago, and she's no longer here to ask anymore. If you can trust God though I think that's the most important part. In both our faith and our prayers. The more we are able to trust and know how to trust, the easier it is to have faith in God, and to bring anything to God, talking to Him in prayer. You can build trust too. Just like learning how much you can trust another person, and getting to to know them increases this in a friendship, I think it's the same way with God. Trusting Him gets real easy (in my opinion) when you see Him do things that strengthen that trust.