I am a christian woman who has been saved since i am a child....my faith has always been the most important thing in my life....
one day i wandered into a athiest debate room.....i stayed there for awhile because i wanted to know what they believed and also i thought that i could plant good seed....well instead of me bringing them up they brought me down and now i doubt my faith....i look at all the miracles in the bible that i never once questioned and now i do....is what we all believe in really just a big fairytale??? why are there no more miracles like in biblical times?
I am questioning Gods exsistence and it is breaking my heart....what if what i believed my whole life is just a made up story?
I cant believe that i doubt God and i miss Jesus so much but i cant get beyond this unbelief......please help
Juliet,
I can relate with you. I've also attempted to understand where Atheists are coming from and get them to understand where I'm coming from.
It was like verbal wrestling! No wonder the scriptures say that the greatest battles are not fought on the battlefield, but are between principles!
Most Atheists, it seems, are ex-Theists who were very hurt by cognitive distortions they were taught from warped interpretations of Theology.
I have felt like them because I also questioned my cult-like religious upbringing and for a time, wanted to discount all theology, just because I found some flaws.
If you look closely, Juliet, many Atheists are caught in cognitive distortions... ie the false belief that things are either ALL good or ALL bad (bi-polar thinking).
They do not realize their hypocrisy in ridiculing Theists for having faith, when they also cannot help but live by faith because they don't predict the future, but have faith that things will go as they hope.
They also do not realize their hypocrisy in other ways. Many Atheists claim that the basis for their disdain of Theology is because of herd-mentality that hurt people - like the Spanish Inquisition or the Crusades. Yet, Atheism is also a "herd" - and sometimes can gang up and be mean to anybody who doesn't believe as their Atheist cult dictates. Ironically, A-theism, has many "Atheist" books telling Atheists what to think. Many Atheists claim to not believe in god, yet they refuse to acknowledge there are infinite definitions of god, and by one definition, they actively worship god. To me, God is CREATOR/Creative Energy based on love - worship - prioritizing. An Atheist who spends hours every day debating there is "no god" ironically has chosen the god of debating no god - because that has become priority/what's worshiped.
There is no doubt that God is real, Juliet.
The only doubt there is, is how to define God.
Generally, one could say that God is truth and light.
Truth is based on not just what is scientifically observable, but truth also includes that which causes influence - even our thoughts (ie placebo effect).
"As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he."
Jesus taught, "The kingdom (realm/experience) of God is within you" and indeed it is. How you feel God/spirit is always within you.
Moses realized that God is "I AM THAT I AM" - My ("I") experience of God is always experienced within me and in the present moment... "am" (not "was", or "will be").
"God is love."
Love is expressed in infinite ways, but generally, I think love is resonating, hoping & striving for what is best, through trial and error - active faith.
For me, I resonate most with imagining God as my Heavenly Father and Mother... but consider how you resonate.
No doubt, God is more than we can imagine, but how we connect with God is based on how we resonate/feel GOoD about.
God is real... test it and you'll see. Pray to know if God is real, with your heart, mind and soul - with faith. You WILL feel the reality of God. You might not feel it right away, but you will feel it. I will also pray for you and all of us - that our faith be strengthened!
