I can't even begin to tell you what is going on, the week started off bad on Monday and just went down hill from there. Events include a horrible rift at work (partly caused by me, tho I did not intend to cause it) and my cell phone was stolen on Tuesday. There are other concerns but those are the highlights.
Here is what gets me: I had not been giving to the church as much as I think I'm being led to. So, last Sunday, I wrote the biggest check to my church I ever have, and prayed over it as I offered it.
Sadly, I talked myself into expecting a GOOD week, not a BAD one due to my good intentions. I hurt inside right now....
It seems like a different world, yet it was only 8 days ago that I wrote that. I won't go into deep detail, but I do feel compelled to update you all. As I look back on the events of that week, I see where I goofed twice. But others tell me that the first goof was not a goof, it was that I was a victim of a crime.
The second goof WAS my goof, but it was not a mistake. I THOUGHT it was a mistake, but I see it now as a goof, an accident but not a mistake. (And we are talking about the "rift at work, caused by me and not PARTLY caused by me but totally caused by me - I just did not want to accept or admit that.) My goof upset me, and it stirred someone else. But what it really did, was to cause a conversation to happen that really needed to happen. Enough details.
One could say,
"God causes all to work together for good......" And, on a basic level, that is what happened. But more clear analysis would be NOT that He "made it all work", but that my prayer of the previous weeks was actually answered - not in the way I wanted, but in the only (?) way it COULD be answered.
You see, last week was absolutely one of the best ever weeks in my five years on my job. It started off good, got better as the week went on, and ended on the highest note it could. I just can't go into details.
My message? My update? My lesson? Simple: try not to doubt or question as you are going thru something, just remember
Ecclesiastes 7:8 "
The end of a matter is better than its beginning,and patience is better than pride."
Perhaps there is one more lesson: If you pray, your prayer will bring about results, but your mental picture of how the results will come, what they will be, even if He gives you what you want, won't match what is coming - and the Lord's timing wont line up with what you think it should be. So, the answers to your prayer won't always look (perhaps until the end, or ever) like the answer you were looking for.
Well, whatever.... It's just that the TIMING of this is kinda funny.