Soma, First and foremost your gilfriend is very lovely, and i'm sorry that you have to undergo such pain.
I'm not going to sit here and tell you through this comment that it is your fault because of your lack of faith, or that God wills it as such. Life and death are viewed differently between man and God. Man sees it as the end of everything, whereas God views it as meeting someone that He's been pen pals with for 80 years. Life is not something that is easy, we all know this. Many people throw there hat in to debate why there is not much divine healing anymore. I have always lived by the belief that man is so corrupted that they are incapable. Simple genetics shows that mans gene pool is becoming more and more shallow every day, and society is spinning faster and faster into the dirt. Something that has always gotten me through the days of my life was simple faith. Most of the people in this forum will tell you to have faith and then expect you to know how, or they will present you with a faith that is too large to be possible.
Faith is a combination in the understanding of divine mini-miricals and hope for something larger. Slowly it builds and healing becomes possible. Look for God in the small things, the fact you found a few dollars in your pants pocket, the toilet paper you thought was for sure out, the buttons that dont break when you button them up.
When you start having faith in the small things it builds to a huge faith. One large thing is only a combination of a bunch of little things.
Have Faith Soma, you dont know what tomorrow will bring. The best way to see if people have strong faith is to question there theology. I could say that God does not know everything because if he did there would not be free will just to see what the responces are.
Trust me Soma, i know from ruthless experiance, Bad things somehow turn into good things. Even if the worst happends, and your girlfriend passes away, you will know the feeling of true, unfailing love. It was not Divorce, or Dissagreements, or hate, or anger that broke you apart, but death. If she Passes Soma, You will have experianced true love, something most people here cannot claim.
"True love is eternal, divorce simply shoes the fakes" - ?
You will get through this, one way or another.
- TBM
P.S. Texas Won!