I'm Doug, new here, got some issues

[needtotalk]

Hi,
I'm new here, and I have some issues I need to express.. The longer I've been a Christian the more I feel like I'm not a Christian at all. I mean, I believe that Jesus Christ is the only Son of God. I know that He died for all men's sins on the cross, including my sins. I believe He bore my penalty on the cross. I also believe that He is alive today, having risen from the dead, to intercede for all His own.

But there's some problems in my belief and faith. I don't feel like God is listening to my prayers. He raised up Jesus from the dead thru the Holy Spirit, but I don't feel that power in my life. I don't know when or if God ever talks to me. I worry excessively about my life and about death.

On the other hand, I've asked God to hear my prayers, and I do see that He has been at work protecting me through my life. I must have a purpose. I've asked Him to reveal His speaking to me. And I admit I need peace to pass all understanding.

I go back and forth, and I feel tossed like a wave. Waves of doubt come over me. This morning I called on my heavenly Father's name, and I heard a voice, "You can't assume God will be YOUR heavenly Father! What a delusion to assume! You have to have more proof, like other people have, before He'll become your Father!"

I trust that is a Satanic blow, and not my own brain coming up with that idea. But you must understand I have severe mental illness (bipolar and schizophrenia) to add confusion to all this.


Anybody have some suggestions and comfort?

-doug

 

[Mike]

Hi Doug.

It sounds like you are really going through it. Rather than get in a discussion here (they really prefer this to be a meet & greet area), I would suggest you just copy and paste what you have written here to a new thread in the "Christian Talk & Advice" forum.

I'm sure you'll find a lot of support there. Please don't feel put off by my response here. But by posting it there, you'll be able to have an ongoing discussion about your concerns.

I'm really glad you came here.

Mike

 

[PouringRain]

Welcome to the forum.

Since you have both bipolar and schizophrenia, have you tried speaking to your therapist/ doctor about any of this?

 

[DrFrank]

Re: I'm Doug, in need of prayer

What psychiatrists diagnose as schizophrenia is frequently demon possession which the hearing of a voice giving you a blasphemous message indicates is your real problem.Actually that's really great news because schizophrenia is almost never cured and confines those who suffer from it to a lifetime of expensive medication with severe side-effects.Demon possession however can be cured almost instantaneously through the prayers of a minister trained to deal with demons which unfortunately few are. If you send me the city and state you live in I'll try to locate a local minister for you to contact. :onfire

 

[freeway]

"needtotalk" Hi,
I'm new here, and I have some issues I need to express.. The longer I've been a Christian the more I feel like I'm not a Christian at all. I mean, I believe that Jesus Christ is the only Son of God. I know that He died for all men's sins on the cross, including my sins. I believe He bore my penalty on the cross. I also believe that He is alive today, having risen from the dead, to intercede for all His own.

Sounds like you know what you are talking about, All the above is true

But there's some problems in my belief and faith. I don't feel like God is listening to my prayers. He raised up Jesus from the dead thru the Holy Spirit, but I don't feel that power in my life. I don't know when or if God ever talks to me. I worry excessively about my life and about death.

I've been a Christian for now almost 30 years, and at time it feels like God is a million miles away. But if I look at my life at those times I'm doing thing that I don't think would really please God. In those time, went I pray it feel as if God is not listening or answering. The truth be known, it me that has moved a million miles away............like the prodical son... I have to come back home to talk to my Father.

On the other hand, I've asked God to hear my prayers, and I do see that He has been at work protecting me through my life. I must have a purpose. I've asked Him to reveal His speaking to me. And I admit I need peace to pass all understanding.

Oh so very true, God has a purpose for all his children, if we will only listen..

I go back and forth, and I feel tossed like a wave. Waves of doubt come over me. This morning I called on my heavenly Father's name, and I heard a voice, "You can't assume God will be YOUR heavenly Father! What a delusion to assume! You have to have more proof, like other people have, before He'll become your Father!"

Yes but those waves are most likely caused by us. not allways but most of the time..

 

[logical bob]

Re: I'm Doug, in need of prayer

Doug, welcome. As I'm not myself a Christian I won't presume to be able to give you the answers you want here, but DrFrank's post worried me greatly.

What psychiatrists diagnose as schizophrenia is frequently demon possession which the hearing of a voice giving you a blasphemous message indicates is your real problem.

Anyone should be extremely careful in suggesting that another person is demonically possessed. That's a very grave suggestion, not least because it can prevent people seeking proper psychiatric support. Mental health problems such as schizophrenia usually respond to medication. Do demons respond to medication?

Actually that's really great news because schizophrenia is almost never cured and confines those who suffer from it to a lifetime of expensive medication with severe side-effects.

Fortunately that's not true. Although schizophrenia may rarely be "cured" in the sense that it completely disappears, many people successfully manage the conditon and live full and valuable lives, often without medication in the long term.

If you send me the city and state you live in I'll try to locate a local minister for you to contact.

Doug, seek whatever support you think will help you. If you go to a minister, though, please do this as well as, not intead of, using properly qualified mental health services. It's really important.

Good luck to you - I hope you find what you're looking for.