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Joey Visitation Thread

By the way guys, I apologize today for the fact that I've been acting like somebody in a soap opera, it's just a very difficult situation that I'm in right now. I'm definitely starting to feel the Lord's presence with me though and so hopefully tomorrow I can start fresh and it will be a much better and brighter day for me. :) Thanks again for all of your love, prayers, and support though. I really appreciate it. :hug
 
HeIsRisen2018 said:
By the way guys, I apologize today for the fact that I've been acting like somebody in a soap opera, it's just a very difficult situation that I'm in right now. I'm definitely starting to feel the Lord's presence with me though and so hopefully tomorrow I can start fresh and it will be a much better and brighter day for me. :) Thanks again for all of your love, prayers, and support though. I really appreciate it. :hug
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No need to apologise. It would absolutaly suck to have a partner in prison. It would be hard for both of you so i understand. Just stay positive.
 
kiwidan said:
No need to apologise. It would absolutaly suck to have a partner in prison. It would be hard for both of you so i understand. Just stay positive.
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Thank you so much, that is so very nice of you. I'm positive alright. Positive that I don't think I can hold on much longer. Although I do understand God is with both of us, it doesn't always feel like it unfortunately. :sad Let's just face it, the last five years have been nothing but an act. That's just me putting on my brave face because I really don't have a choice.
 
HeIsRisen2018 said:
Thank you so much, that is so very nice of you. I'm positive alright. Positive that I don't think I can hold on much longer. Although I do understand God is with both of us, it doesn't always feel like it unfortunately. :sad Let's just face it, the last five years have been nothing but an act. That's just me putting on my brave face because I really don't have a choice.
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I know. Thats why your always positive on the outside and on this forum because on the inside your completely torn. I can see it. Can't hide anything from Brother Kiwi. :)
 
kiwidan said:
I know. Thats why your always positive on the outside and on this forum because on the inside your completely torn. I can see it. Can't hide anything from Brother Kiwi. :)
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And I guess obviously I can't hide anything from God either because He already knows everything I'm feeling inside. But yes I am so torn up that I couldn't take it anymore and I finally wrote to Joe and told him how I really have been feeling ever since he left me. In fact, have you ever seen the show Naruto by any chance?
 
Tessa said:
Glad you're feeling a bit better :hug
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Thanks and yeah I am a bit. I'm trying to cling onto the Lord as much as possible and hoping that He will fill that great big empty space in my heart. I know that lying is a sin which is why I like to think that I'm always a hundred percent truthful, but I feel like I haven't for the past five years since my happiness has only been an act. How can I ever truly be happy and strong when I feel so broken and destroyed? :sad
 
I just wanted to add really quick that I always tell the truth other than that though, and the truth is that I also don't want to appear sad and miserable all the time which is why I have found things to keep me busy. That doesn't mean that I still don't feel that way in my heart though. That part unfortunately can't be helped when you're that madly in love with someone.
 
Thanks, but although I love Him very much I wish I really knew why God has decided to separate us like this though. Although my faith has gotten much stronger, I still stumble and fall a bit. Especially at times like this.
 
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Well guys I am doing much better today but I want you all to watch this clip. For all of you who haven't seen the show Naruto, (I know that questdriven has) these are two of its main characters Sasuke and Sakura. Sasuke is leaving the village to seek revenge on his brother Itachi who murdered his clan and Sakura is upset because he's leaving her and she's fallen in love with him. Sure it might be a different situation but when she says, "I'm so in love with you that I can't even stand it!" and, "If you were gone Sasuke, it would be the same thing as being all alone." that's basically the same thing I recently messaged to my fiancée except he's been gone for five years and his name isn't Sasuke, but you get the basic idea.



 
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HeIsRisen2018 said:
And I guess obviously I can't hide anything from God either because He already knows everything I'm feeling inside. But yes I am so torn up that I couldn't take it anymore and I finally wrote to Joe and told him how I really have been feeling ever since he left me. In fact, have you ever seen the show Naruto by any chance?
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Wait! He didn't "leave you." What happened is a BIG difference, and keeping that distinction clear may be important to enable you to hang on.

Also, there's no reason to think that the current circumstance is God's plan. Bad things do happen, and they happen to good people.

God is known for turning a bad situation around, and using it to accomplish His will anyway, despite the evil our enemy planned.
These differences in perspective may prove crucial ...
 
Here are some other songs that help me cope until I see Joey again.


















Razeontherock said:
Wait! He didn't "leave you." What happened is a BIG difference, and keeping that distinction clear may be important to enable you to hang on.

Also, there's no reason to think that the current circumstance is God's plan. Bad things do happen, and they happen to good people.

God is known for turning a bad situation around, and using it to accomplish His will anyway, despite the evil our enemy planned.
These differences in perspective may prove crucial ...
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Don't get me wrong, I know what you mean, but you also know what I mean. Joe was accused for a crime he didn't commit and he has Aspergers which is a higher form of Autism. When he was being accused he didn't understand that he had the right to not answer any questions until he had a lawyer present and they totally twisted his "confession" around. His miranda rights were violated because they weren't even read to him in the first place! *bleep* it! It just isn't fair! We could have been married and have had kids by now if it wasn't for those stupid *bleeping* officers! They're the ones who bleeped up not him!! I'm sorry to all the moderators reading this but it just makes me so incredibly angry and I can't help but ask myself where was God when all of this *bleep* was going on!? Maybe I should just go take a shower now because I feel like I'm about to burst into tears again. We love each other so much and we were and hopefully still are committed to serving the Lord,.. we just can't help but question Him sometimes. The pain just hurts me so much and there's absolutely nothing that either of us can do about it. :crying
 
Taking any statement you make and twisting it around to hurt you with it is what Police are trained to do, and yes that includes lies. That's part of the reason they reject anyone who's too smart. So this is all standard fare.

Courts really don't care about truth, they only care about what the available evidence can be used to prove. If Miranda rights were never read, maybe that could be a strong case? Has that angle been tried?
 
Razeontherock said:
Taking any statement you make and twisting it around to hurt you with it is what Police are trained to do, and yes that includes lies. That's part of the reason they reject anyone who's too smart. So this is all standard fare.

Courts really don't care about truth, they only care about what the available evidence can be used to prove. If Miranda rights were never read, maybe that could be a strong case? Has that angle been tried?
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Yes unfortunately it has, but they claimed that they weren't arresting him at the time and they were only questioning him before they told him that he was under arrest for "confessing." I still don't think that's legal though is it? Because it certainly doesn't sound like it. I would go further into detail but I'm afraid of the simple fact his true identity might be revealed if I did and I only want to protect him since that's how much I truly love him.
 
I'm just really hoping and praying that I haven't said too much already. I would never forgive myself if something else happened to him and it was all my fault. :sad
 
Unfortunately what you describe in post #35 is all too common; it's become standard fare. This contributes greatly to public distrust in Police, it's not just about Ferguson.
Take the advice from the legal profession and never tell a cop anything (if you don't have to)
 
Razeontherock said:
Unfortunately what you describe in post #35 is all too common; it's become standard fare. This contributes greatly to public distrust in Police, it's not just about Ferguson.
Take the advice from the legal profession and never tell a cop anything (if you don't have to)
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Not all of them are like that though, but I just really don't know I can handle being separated from the man I love for that much longer. I really hope and pray that God can give us the strength to get through this. They completely overlooked the fact that like myself Joe is disabled.
 
Anyway, I have been having a much better day today. I have come to realize that when God seems farthest away from us is when we need Him most. Tessa reminded me of this poem.



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And I also found this clock that counts down the days to August 10th 2022, so if we don't find any loopholes, the worst case is that we only have to wait a few more years before we can spend the rest of our lives together and the tears that we shed will only be tears of joy.



http://www.howlongagogo.com/date/2022/august/10





I can't wait until that day we embrace and he never lets me go again.









 
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