I think we are praying for you. I know I am. And trust me, as bad as it seems, there have been people make it out to being whole (or largely whole) in Christ who have had things even worse than you have. I know one sister who was a victim of Satanic mind control and used by the Illuminati since the age of three. Tough woman.
I also know another sister who was sexually abused by her father from a very early age, and sometimes locked in a closet for days on end. They are following the path I am telling you to, and God is using them both. The second one receives prophetic dreams, and the first reaches a lot of people and helps them come out of SRA (Satanic Ritual Abuse), so if God can do that for them then He can do it for you.