Christ_empowered
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...OK. I get the sense that I'm just now able to comprehend not only the basics of Christ, but the fundamentals of what it means to be a Christian. I did a lot of drugs ("Drugs are bad, m'kay?"), had 2 rounds of involuntary ECT, and had a near-fatal head injury (I got bashed on the head with a pipe while walking through a not so great neighborhood 7 years ago). I shouldn't be alive, so I can't complain, but...wow.
I get the sense that God kept me going, I indicated some interest in Christ, and He's graced me. Its incredible, really. Oh, did I mention that I also seem to have "outgrown" my narcissism, all of a sudden? Some people do, its true, and my maturation was stunted by severe trauma and other stuff. (This from my counselor).
Anyway...God's been good to me, no lie. Not good in a "tough love" sort of way, nor in a coddling sort of way, but genuinely good to me, in a way that I may never comprehend.
So...on the one hand, praise. Major praise. I did too many drugs, spent too much money back when my parents were more middle class (they are, thankfully, relatively affluent now), and wasted a lot of opportunities. Of coursae, every wretch has a back story, so...yeah...there was a lot going onthere.
And yet another prayer request (I seem to dominate this board, lol). I pray to become truly, completely, totally Christian. Not *perfect*, just...Christian. Genuinely, authentically Christian, flaws and all.
Oh...and I pray that I become genuinely not narcissistic. I could write a book on how narcissists are treated by secular mental health. Its terrible. Mine was probably born of early childhood trauma and questionable parenting, but...hey, whatever, right? He's narcissistic! The label is used as condemnation.
Thanks
I get the sense that God kept me going, I indicated some interest in Christ, and He's graced me. Its incredible, really. Oh, did I mention that I also seem to have "outgrown" my narcissism, all of a sudden? Some people do, its true, and my maturation was stunted by severe trauma and other stuff. (This from my counselor).
Anyway...God's been good to me, no lie. Not good in a "tough love" sort of way, nor in a coddling sort of way, but genuinely good to me, in a way that I may never comprehend.
So...on the one hand, praise. Major praise. I did too many drugs, spent too much money back when my parents were more middle class (they are, thankfully, relatively affluent now), and wasted a lot of opportunities. Of coursae, every wretch has a back story, so...yeah...there was a lot going onthere.
And yet another prayer request (I seem to dominate this board, lol). I pray to become truly, completely, totally Christian. Not *perfect*, just...Christian. Genuinely, authentically Christian, flaws and all.
Oh...and I pray that I become genuinely not narcissistic. I could write a book on how narcissists are treated by secular mental health. Its terrible. Mine was probably born of early childhood trauma and questionable parenting, but...hey, whatever, right? He's narcissistic! The label is used as condemnation.
Thanks