My husband and I have both been struggling, because we do not feel the peace of God in our lives. We were both saved, or so we thought. My husband is the most commited person, and he has told me time and time again that he has cried in search of God, and has done it since he was a young boy, and never felt God.
What do you mean by "never felt God"? What sort of feeling has your husband expected to have of his Creator?
As for me, I believe, but i am not sure that i have really felt God myself either.
I'm not clear on what "feeling God" - whatever this means - has to do with being one of His children.
My husband also has doubts because he does not understand how the same God who ordered to have women children and animals killed in the old testament, could be the loving God described in the new testament.
Does your husband know why God ordered such a thing? Does he have a well-informed (that is, biblical) understanding of the context within which God issued such commands? As you've stated things here, God sounds capricious and incredibly vicious, but a careful inspection of Scripture paints a very different picture of God in His dealings with the enemy nations surrounding (and often attacking) His Chosen People.
My question for you all is, is there anything true about feeling God in your life?
I don't know what you man by "feeling God," but the Holy Spirit acts in my life daily in just the way the Bible, God's word, promises that he will. The Holy Spirit:
- convicts me of "sin, righteousness and judgment" (
John 16:8)
- teaches me God's truth (provided I'm in the Bible studying it -
John 16:13; John 14:26; 1 Corinthians 2:10-16)
- strengthens me in times of temptation and trial (
Ephesians 3:16; Romans 8:13; Philippians 2:13; Philippians 4:13)
- comforts me in seasons of trouble and sorrow (
2 Corinthians 1:3-5)
- transforms me, making me more and more like Jesus (
Galatians 5:22-23; 2 Corinthians 3:18; 2 Corinthians 4:7-11)
By doing these things in my life every day, the Holy Spirit "bears witness with my spirit" that I am a child of God (
Romans 8:16). This is what "feeling God" means, as far as Scripture is concerned. Keep in mind that all of these things are enacted by the Holy Spirit in ways that are distinct from demonic, or fleshly, counterfeits of his life and work in a child of God.
About having the changed heart and peace that God promised in his word? I am looking for honest answers, I want to know if I am just expecting God inmy life to feel like some fairy tale, or if God really does show himself, because he has yet to for me.
A "changed heart" is the by-product of daily fellowship with God, the reward of living before Him in knowledge, faith, love, submission and holiness, enjoying constant, intimate communion with Him. Such a heart does
not - in
practical experience, anyway - form in an instant, developing radically and explosively, altering a person forever in a single moment. Instead, God transforms His children over time, gradually, day by day, like a branch growing out from the trunk of a tree (
John 15:4-5).
In what other human relationship we might have do we expect an immediate, profound and total transformation of our heart and mind in reflection of the relationship? We don't balk at the idea that the development of a human friendship within which we are greatly influenced may take many years of persistent investment of time, energy and money. Though the Twelve disciples lived with Jesus for three years, only at the very end of their time with him did they begin to see with any real clarity and understanding who he was and what he'd come to do. Paul the apostle was nearly
two decades in preparation by God for the ministry to the Gentiles that he eventually had. Moses waited on the "backside of the desert"
'til he was eighty before God used him to lead the Exodus of Israel from Egypt. Only after many years of marriage intimacy do a husband and wife strongly reflect one another, thinking alike, even using the same phrases and mannerisms. In light of these examples, why do so many people think God has to change their hearts in a single, dramatic moment, rather than progressively, as the consequence of continual, daily fellowship with Himself?
God has "shown Himself" in Nature (aka - Creation), in your possession of a Moral Sense (conscience), and in the special revelation of Himself in the Bible. Why aren't these ways in which God has "shown Himself" sufficient to persuade you that He exists and can be known personally and directly? Why is a "feeling" of God also necessary?