Oh precious,
Jesus is madly in love with you, remember He chose you, and me, before the foundation of the world, that means He chose you/us knowing all of the mistakes we will make.
I must say candidly and up front, ...being afraid to fail comes from our pride, that we must crucify, ..yes we fail, and will continue to fail all of the time we spend here on planet earth, but His love and the Cross has paid for all of our failures, so what then when we fail, ...don't waste the lesson, don't waste the precious Blood, learn the lesson and move on, walking in faith.
Peter saw Jesus walking on the water and said,"If that's You Lord, call me to come to You," and Jesus said, "come," Peter stepped out of the boat and started to walk on water, but when he looked at the storm and the waves he started to sink, did you get that, he started to sink, and we read Jesus reached out and took a hold of the burly fisherman and set him in the boat.
It's the same with us, when we step out in faith Jesus is always there to help when our faith falters, now faith comes from hearing and hearing from the Word of God, ...that's why I said to find a safe and secure place for you and your children and then seek the Lord for His direction, ...you tell us how much He means to you and you love Him, that is miniscule to how much you mean to Him and how much He loves you.
I encourage you dear sister, ...make the call.