[__ Prayer __] Minor paranoia

[Christ_empowered]

I made lunch for myself at my place. Delicious! And…

I found a long shiny blonde hair later on top a ziplock bag or….something…

Ugh ? I’m not super paranoid but I’m a low status stigmatized individual. Things went missing from my place. Even now I get taunted about stuff inside my modest but nice apartment. And…

I don’t have long blonde hair and neither does anyone in my family etc.

So I’m dealing with minor paranoia. Or perhaps ? elevated fear but not really paranoia. And it’s not entirely irrational.

Thanks ?

 

[hawkman]

You could have unknowingly brought the hair in a bag with ANY of your outside the home purchases .

 

[Christ_empowered]

Yeah…

That’s what I was thinking, especially since I do a lot of my shopping thru curbside pickup…

Thank you hawkman

 

[Christ_empowered]

Ugh ?

Went out a bit today. Apparently some locals think I should be committed to the state hospital ?. And yet…

My life is good ? and honestly? I’m all about human rights and helping people etc but…

I really can’t claim to deserve this decent modest lifestyle. I think ? it’s about what I can handle and I think ? it’s what I need to be safe and stay sane in a cruel world ? but…

Grace. God is Love. My parents are not big on taking about religion at least not with me but…

Scripture advises believers to provide for relatives who genuinely cannot fend for themselves. And…honestly? That’s this guy. I’ve tried working. I even worked while I was apparently suffering from a mix of advancing hiv and cancer. True story! God is amazing. I survived the rough work environment cancer and hiv…

And now I’m healthy with no standard medical treatment. I don’t recommend not getting treatment for cancer etc to anyone. It was more like…treatment for real medical conditions wasn’t going to be provided. Tranquilizers and punishment? Sure! Actual medical care? Nah.

I’m mildly paranoid now about some weird streak in my car ?. Washed it…still there…don’t get it? Probably nothing. And if it is something?

Prayers. Faith hope and love. Forgiveness. Gratitude ?.

Thanks everyone.