Well here's a big hello from Surrey, B.C. Canada. How shall I start this. I was born in Kitchener Ontario, later on we moved to British Columbia. I was raised a Catholic. My background is European Polish. I went and completed my first communion but since the age of 13 I have not been committed to the Lord.
I am 25 years old now. I have done many bad things in my life, especially in my past. Some are very personal but I am man enough to admit to it. I have smoked marijuana, tried mmda. I have done lots of drinking and driving, got caught twice doing it. Learned my lesson the hard way. I have disobeyed my parents. I once stole money from a friend and tried to convince him that I never took it. I used my own hard earned money on prostitutes and escorts. When I was in a relationship with my gf and we were not active physically together I cheated on her with these escorts out of frustration. I did the same to her when we were engaged and I did the same to her again the night of my stag party. Since we have been married the last 6 months I have not even thought of doing such a thing. I promised myself and god I will never go back to this lifestyle. In my previous relationship I was loyal and faithful and I got cheated on. It devastated me. It turned me into this wrecking machine where I wanted revenge. I lost trust in relationships. I would purposely break women's hearts to make myself feel better. I have been clean the last 6 months. I don't drink anymore. I don't do any drugs. I am faithful and honest and loyal now.
I suffered a severe physical hardship 4 months ago. Due to I think, All my partying, loud music, clubbing, I developed a ringing in my right ear. Faint during the day but loud and annoying at night time in a quiet room. Since developing this and being robbed of my silence, I have never been more closer to god then before. I think this was a way of showing me I'm not immortal and I can be broken. I was living a lifestyle of freedom and I thought I can do as I please.
The first three months were horrible. I would cry in the shower. Kneel down and cry to god. I was asking for forgiveness everyday, asking him to clear my heart, open my soul, give me a chance. Give me strength to put this ringing out of my head and move on. Then one day, I was in the shower frustrated, angry, I knelt down and I really meant it. I clasped my hands together and put them to my face. I begged and pleaded for mercy. I cried out against all my sins and and for 5 minutes I pleaded for relief. When I opened my eyes, I felt warm. Something I have not felt for years. I felt lighter. I could hear the ringing but it didn't bother me so much. Then I noticed my hands were no longer by my face. They were above my head and still clasped together.
So I thought to myself this is my start. This is my chance. I went to Chapters and bought a bible. I started reading it. I went to church and did a painful confession begging for forgiveness. I plan to attend church for this first time in years and years this Sunday. I still feel remorse and I still feel guilt for the actions and things that I have done but it's not as severe. Day by day it gets better. Day by day I find myself seeking for answers and feeling stronger.
This is my story. I know it's vulgar. I know it's very sinful. But it's the truth. Now anyone can ask me anything and I can proudly say I said the truth. Thanks for listening to me. God Bless you all. Everyone deserves a chance no matter what sins have been committed. When my time comes to be judged, I hope God can look at me and forgive me. Thank You
I am 25 years old now. I have done many bad things in my life, especially in my past. Some are very personal but I am man enough to admit to it. I have smoked marijuana, tried mmda. I have done lots of drinking and driving, got caught twice doing it. Learned my lesson the hard way. I have disobeyed my parents. I once stole money from a friend and tried to convince him that I never took it. I used my own hard earned money on prostitutes and escorts. When I was in a relationship with my gf and we were not active physically together I cheated on her with these escorts out of frustration. I did the same to her when we were engaged and I did the same to her again the night of my stag party. Since we have been married the last 6 months I have not even thought of doing such a thing. I promised myself and god I will never go back to this lifestyle. In my previous relationship I was loyal and faithful and I got cheated on. It devastated me. It turned me into this wrecking machine where I wanted revenge. I lost trust in relationships. I would purposely break women's hearts to make myself feel better. I have been clean the last 6 months. I don't drink anymore. I don't do any drugs. I am faithful and honest and loyal now.
I suffered a severe physical hardship 4 months ago. Due to I think, All my partying, loud music, clubbing, I developed a ringing in my right ear. Faint during the day but loud and annoying at night time in a quiet room. Since developing this and being robbed of my silence, I have never been more closer to god then before. I think this was a way of showing me I'm not immortal and I can be broken. I was living a lifestyle of freedom and I thought I can do as I please.
The first three months were horrible. I would cry in the shower. Kneel down and cry to god. I was asking for forgiveness everyday, asking him to clear my heart, open my soul, give me a chance. Give me strength to put this ringing out of my head and move on. Then one day, I was in the shower frustrated, angry, I knelt down and I really meant it. I clasped my hands together and put them to my face. I begged and pleaded for mercy. I cried out against all my sins and and for 5 minutes I pleaded for relief. When I opened my eyes, I felt warm. Something I have not felt for years. I felt lighter. I could hear the ringing but it didn't bother me so much. Then I noticed my hands were no longer by my face. They were above my head and still clasped together.
So I thought to myself this is my start. This is my chance. I went to Chapters and bought a bible. I started reading it. I went to church and did a painful confession begging for forgiveness. I plan to attend church for this first time in years and years this Sunday. I still feel remorse and I still feel guilt for the actions and things that I have done but it's not as severe. Day by day it gets better. Day by day I find myself seeking for answers and feeling stronger.
This is my story. I know it's vulgar. I know it's very sinful. But it's the truth. Now anyone can ask me anything and I can proudly say I said the truth. Thanks for listening to me. God Bless you all. Everyone deserves a chance no matter what sins have been committed. When my time comes to be judged, I hope God can look at me and forgive me. Thank You
