[__ Prayer __] My eyes and ears

[citrus]

I'm supposed to hear from.a doctor soon about them setting an apt for me. Who knows how long that will take. Right now everyone is a sleep as has a full day tomorrow for work. I'm awake obviously and my ear hurts like crazy. I am praying it will stop. A minute ago I felt like screaming. I know my life is so dramatic, but I am praying it will suddenly down here in a few. Going to try to sleep while it calms down. I hate how it tales forever to get apt. And they bounce you around to doctors. Then it takes forever to get in. Please pray. I just want a doctor to do whatever and fix it. It isn't ear wax or anything like that. And on top of that my eyes are bothering me. I am just praying I can get through this and see that doctor soon and that the pain won't get worse. Definitely don't want to get stuck in a room and robe thing for 19 hours without getting help. Especially sense mine you can't see. Thanks for reading. I'm going to try and sleep it through. Hopefully it calms down. They don't even know where to send me to. My nurse said she is going to send me to an ear and throat doctor, but what about my eyes. Somehow they are related and working against me together. Blah I don't want to doctor hop and not get in my Apts. Until April or something. Blah

 

[GodsGrace]

I'm supposed to hear from.a doctor soon about them setting an apt for me. Who knows how long that will take. Right now everyone is a sleep as has a full day tomorrow for work. I'm awake obviously and my ear hurts like crazy. I am praying it will stop. A minute ago I felt like screaming. I know my life is so dramatic, but I am praying it will suddenly down here in a few. Going to try to sleep while it calms down. I hate how it tales forever to get apt. And they bounce you around to doctors. Then it takes forever to get in. Please pray. I just want a doctor to do whatever and fix it. It isn't ear wax or anything like that. And on top of that my eyes are bothering me. I am just praying I can get through this and see that doctor soon and that the pain won't get worse. Definitely don't want to get stuck in a room and robe thing for 19 hours without getting help. Especially sense mine you can't see. Thanks for reading. I'm going to try and sleep it through. Hopefully it calms down. They don't even know where to send me to. My nurse said she is going to send me to an ear and throat doctor, but what about my eyes. Somehow they are related and working against me together. Blah I don't want to doctor hop and not get in my Apts. Until April or something. Blah

Let us know after you see the doctor.
Praying for you.

 

[Want2care]

I pray for healing in your ears and comfort in the meantime God bless you

 

[citrus]

I pray for healing in your ears and comfort in the meantime God bless you

Thank you!!!! That means the world to me. I am sad and scared. it's taking forever to get a doctor appointment

 

[citrus]

Sense I have Medicare and Medicaid that means I pay the bill, but not as expensive? My parents are my guardians. I'm still paying the bill right? Because they always ask about Medicare and medaid. When I went to the dentist this is how it worked. It took me 3 years to get my parents to take me to the dentist (I don't drive). I payed for it. My braces, cavities and root Canal and crown. Why do they scold me harshly when I ask for them to make an appointment. I went to a doctor and she said I need to call her if I don't get an appointment in two weeks. It's been over a month? I asked my mom and she jumped down my throat and how she can't do it right now.. I'm like I don't expect you to I am just reminding you. (I've been reminding her before). My dad always gas lights me so i hate telling him when I am having problems. I just fear their scolding like I am making it up or yiu did go to the doctor. Yes and she said I need to set up an appointment with a specialist. Isn't coming out of my pocket anyway? Why are they like this? Nothing more frustrating. This is going to be such a long process. First have to try to get an appointment which could be forever and then have to go to another specialist because it is not one problem. My dad is on vacation. He is retiring and has lots of vacation time. He could take me. There always constantly holding me back about anything and everything. I do see a psychiatrist for depression stuff like that. They mentioned counseling and my parents said amidtly no. Why? Does it cost a lot? Is it coming out of my account? Is it to time consuming going to all these appointments and easier to stick to the main stuff? I don't understand it and I don't see my parents as bad parents just sometimes their heartless and ruthless. They don't care. You know it's all in my head sense I now have a reputation of being depressed and such. Yes it is all in my head, it's called my brain. I never talk with my parents. I listen to them talk all the time, about their day and stuff going on and the like, but they don't listen when I talk like I'm not worth listening to. I talk to my dad and I'm like, did you hear what I said? He's like, no. Meh. I don't understand all this. Maybe you don't either. I'm not trying to be mean I just don't understand it. They also act like they are going to live forever and that I am still going to be there with them in the same house, doing the same stuff. I can never do anything. I feel useless. For ex I need to know how to cook and they always like, why? So they ignore me. Glad they cook for me and we go out to eat. Sometimes I pay for the meal. Geese sometimes I can't even read a book I have to watch TV 24 7. I like TV but not all the time. Sorry I'm just venting. I'm sure they have good intentions. It's just that it is poor communication skills and it isn't enough. My dad is like, do you think I am a good dad? What am I supposed to say. Yes he worked his butt off all these years to provide and we have our laughs. We like some of the same stuff. He's never hit me or anything bad. So I'm like, yes. Someone help me. They don't realize their not doing me anygood not teaching me life skills and not helping me with my health. I'm not a loud to drive because I had a seizure a long time ago or I would drive myself. They would be so mad if I could drive and went myself.

 

[citrus]

Meh

 

[citrus]

I pay my rent and clean house to help out. Other than that they just don't get it. I'm living their dreams. I'm not a little kid anymore and they aren't 30 anymore. They are aging. Time doesn't just stop for our convenience. It isn't comforting for me to see them age. I feel like they are on another planet then me. the communication stinks

 

[Want2care]

Try to stay in prayer if you can and talk to God and I've always been told try to listen which means to just be quiet and try to hear what God has to tell you

 

[citrus]

Try to stay in prayer if you can and talk to God and I've always been told try to listen which means to just be quiet and try to hear what God has to tell you

Thank you. I will be.