Christ_empowered
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yup yup. we're at the beach. we're leaving tomorrow. im going over to her room for dinner in just a bit. I"m thankful.
anyway...there was -no- way she or my dad would ever forgive me, etc. just....no, no, no way. pity? OK. an ongoing sense of duty, obligation? yeah, fine. forgiveness? pshaw...no!
but, The Lord has made a way. "You must die to be Born Again." It certainly helps that He's added a lot of good things unto me that I either threw away, never had, or...were taken from me. I keep trying to remind myself; Jesus doesn't patch up the old You, who does a mighty work on transformation, from the inside.
So...yeah...mama's biopsy came back clean, she's retired, she's cutting back on her professional obligations, she and my dad get along, i get along well with my parents, and...God is good!
it was my mom who showed up at a bond hearing with a good lawyer, btw. i was basically headed to somewhere very unpleasant, and she shelled out for a good attorney, even though...whoa. i was wretched. so now...
I'm Born Again. I'm healthy. I'm smart enough for some of my goals. I may, in fact, have Schizophrenia (I'd love to believe that its "severe Bipolar I," but...ummm....probably not the case...). My mama is doing well, and I'm thankful. We'll soon be back home...and I'l be back to posting about the neighbors and small town pariah life, lol.
but...seriously....God is good! I praise Him for His work in my life and my parents' lives. Even if I never "Fully recover" from Schizophrenia, even if I never end up having much of what the world considers a "normal" life...He is good, nonetheless. Besides, my parents have gone from trying to figure out the best way to possibly get rid of me (trust me on this one) to actually...at times...seeming to enjoy having me around. God is good!
OK. I'm finished, for now.
anyway...there was -no- way she or my dad would ever forgive me, etc. just....no, no, no way. pity? OK. an ongoing sense of duty, obligation? yeah, fine. forgiveness? pshaw...no!
but, The Lord has made a way. "You must die to be Born Again." It certainly helps that He's added a lot of good things unto me that I either threw away, never had, or...were taken from me. I keep trying to remind myself; Jesus doesn't patch up the old You, who does a mighty work on transformation, from the inside.
So...yeah...mama's biopsy came back clean, she's retired, she's cutting back on her professional obligations, she and my dad get along, i get along well with my parents, and...God is good!
it was my mom who showed up at a bond hearing with a good lawyer, btw. i was basically headed to somewhere very unpleasant, and she shelled out for a good attorney, even though...whoa. i was wretched. so now...
I'm Born Again. I'm healthy. I'm smart enough for some of my goals. I may, in fact, have Schizophrenia (I'd love to believe that its "severe Bipolar I," but...ummm....probably not the case...). My mama is doing well, and I'm thankful. We'll soon be back home...and I'l be back to posting about the neighbors and small town pariah life, lol.
but...seriously....God is good! I praise Him for His work in my life and my parents' lives. Even if I never "Fully recover" from Schizophrenia, even if I never end up having much of what the world considers a "normal" life...He is good, nonetheless. Besides, my parents have gone from trying to figure out the best way to possibly get rid of me (trust me on this one) to actually...at times...seeming to enjoy having me around. God is good!
OK. I'm finished, for now.