Christ_empowered
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- Oct 23, 2010
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they're wonderful, long suffering people. I don't know if they've truly forgiven me, or if they ever will, but...they've seen fit to lift me out of -real poverty- and reconcile with me enough for us to do things together, have meals together, even (before covid hit...) go on vacations together, and...and...
-sigh- 'twas grace that saved a wretch like me. I see now that I could have done better, I didn't, and...they ended up picking up the tab and also paying the emotional costs of dealing with...old me.
-sigh- thankfully, they're both retired now, not rich but...i dunno...upper middle class, perhaps well to do. not to brag...their careers came under fire periodically, from the time i was in middle school onwards...colleagues, upwardly mobile stuff, small town politics, blah blah blah...
The Lord saw them thru, and then all 3 of us, really, as a family. I am increasingly grateful. Thing is...
I'm so much...different, now, than when I was in my mess, even than where and who I was 3 years ago...its crazy. I'm healthy now, bright eyed, I even somehow have a "high IQ (estimate: 145, 150...started at 120)," and...and...
I'd very much like to somehow be fully forgiven, but I don't know...if that's in the realm of possibility, honestly. I dunno. And I care about their salvation, too...I think they're leaning towards Jesus, but -not- church, if that makes sense. burned by mainline Presby church people, burned by conservative megachurch people...yet, in their actions, they're godlier than many church people.
so, I guess I'm asking...please pray for my parents.
its not an emergency, there is no crisis, its just...a general prayer request. and...that is all. lol.
-sigh- 'twas grace that saved a wretch like me. I see now that I could have done better, I didn't, and...they ended up picking up the tab and also paying the emotional costs of dealing with...old me.
-sigh- thankfully, they're both retired now, not rich but...i dunno...upper middle class, perhaps well to do. not to brag...their careers came under fire periodically, from the time i was in middle school onwards...colleagues, upwardly mobile stuff, small town politics, blah blah blah...
The Lord saw them thru, and then all 3 of us, really, as a family. I am increasingly grateful. Thing is...
I'm so much...different, now, than when I was in my mess, even than where and who I was 3 years ago...its crazy. I'm healthy now, bright eyed, I even somehow have a "high IQ (estimate: 145, 150...started at 120)," and...and...
I'd very much like to somehow be fully forgiven, but I don't know...if that's in the realm of possibility, honestly. I dunno. And I care about their salvation, too...I think they're leaning towards Jesus, but -not- church, if that makes sense. burned by mainline Presby church people, burned by conservative megachurch people...yet, in their actions, they're godlier than many church people.
so, I guess I'm asking...please pray for my parents.
its not an emergency, there is no crisis, its just...a general prayer request. and...that is all. lol. 
