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Me. Yes again lol 
But seriously
I’m learning to accept the junk around me and carry on in my quiet peaceful daily life anyway. This is God’s mercy on me yet again.
I ran into a newer convenience store
here locally to get some reasonably priced snacks. And…yeah…not a lot of people in the store but I heard the under the breath comments etc and…
It may never end. Ugh
but seriously 
: sometimes it’s just the way the cookie 
crumbles lol.
I don’t live in poverty. I’m healthy. I don’t have obvious brain damage. I don’t even have premature aging. Considering my own sins and things that happened to me out in the world
and the way the world 
works…
I’ve been spared so much brought to repentance and now 12 years into my walk with Christ…
I may have to accept that this is the way my little corner of the world
feels about me etc etc.
I dunno
it does sometimes get…creepy. I live in a modest but pleasant place in a modest but quiet and safe neighborhood and…
I dunno
the hoa sends out mass emails. So they’ve gotten multiple complaints from companies hired to do pretty much anything out here in the neighborhood….
To the point that they’re having a hard time getting people to do work here and also having difficulty holding onto people for things like maintenance and landscaping etc. so…
On the one hand
it’s a sad comment in my neighborhood and I honestly think the community as a whole to some extent. On the other hand 
it sort of makes me feel less…well…crazy about things that have happened to me here, because it’s the same sort of pointless cruelty that’s making it difficult for the hoa to get qualified contractors etc…
To the extent that now they’re threatening fines against home owners and probably worse penalties for renters who get nasty with the workers. Eek
kinda bad when things go that far…
But again: it sort of reaffirms my own experiences and general sense of the vibe many more vocal people in the neighborhood give.
Sorry to ramble…
I’m dealing with taunting ramping up in some respects and it’s not fun at all but I’m dealing with it better now in Christ. It’s strange how I’m mellow and just mind my own business…I make it a point to not get involved with neighbors beyond saying hello
and maybe occasional small talk they initiate…
But I’ve been dealing with people waking me up at 3 4 5 AM and for a while there people would occasionally throw things at my exterior wall and there was this man who tried to intimidate me…while walking his dog near my patio around 6 am and…?
It’s just free floating cruelty and groups of mean people who apparently feel free to pick on people. It’s ridiculous and some of it has gotten better for me…
And some hasn’t. Ugh.
Maybe it’s a common thing in condos/apartments? I dunno I do know that some of my old…as in 20 years old…psych labels 
are an issue with some vocal people here and that’s frightening but also…
Surprisingly common! Note
to fellow believers: avoid the mental health industry as best you can! My own alphabet soup of labels is an almost never ending source of scorn and derision in my community.
Ok
I have so much to be thankful 
for and I am increasingly truly grateful 
…
I just also need to vent a bit and praise God while also asking for His grace and protection and mercy.
Thanks
But seriously
I’m learning to accept the junk around me and carry on in my quiet peaceful daily life anyway. This is God’s mercy on me yet again. I ran into a newer convenience store
here locally to get some reasonably priced snacks. And…yeah…not a lot of people in the store but I heard the under the breath comments etc and…It may never end. Ugh
but seriously : sometimes it’s just the way the cookie crumbles lol.I don’t live in poverty. I’m healthy. I don’t have obvious brain damage. I don’t even have premature aging. Considering my own sins and things that happened to me out in the world
and the way the world works…I’ve been spared so much brought to repentance and now 12 years into my walk with Christ…
I may have to accept that this is the way my little corner of the world
feels about me etc etc. I dunno
it does sometimes get…creepy. I live in a modest but pleasant place in a modest but quiet and safe neighborhood and…I dunno
the hoa sends out mass emails. So they’ve gotten multiple complaints from companies hired to do pretty much anything out here in the neighborhood….To the point that they’re having a hard time getting people to do work here and also having difficulty holding onto people for things like maintenance and landscaping etc. so…
On the one hand
it’s a sad comment in my neighborhood and I honestly think the community as a whole to some extent. On the other hand it sort of makes me feel less…well…crazy about things that have happened to me here, because it’s the same sort of pointless cruelty that’s making it difficult for the hoa to get qualified contractors etc…To the extent that now they’re threatening fines against home owners and probably worse penalties for renters who get nasty with the workers. Eek
kinda bad when things go that far…But again: it sort of reaffirms my own experiences and general sense of the vibe many more vocal people in the neighborhood give.
Sorry to ramble…
I’m dealing with taunting ramping up in some respects and it’s not fun at all but I’m dealing with it better now in Christ. It’s strange how I’m mellow and just mind my own business…I make it a point to not get involved with neighbors beyond saying hello
and maybe occasional small talk they initiate…But I’ve been dealing with people waking me up at 3 4 5 AM and for a while there people would occasionally throw things at my exterior wall and there was this man who tried to intimidate me…while walking his dog near my patio around 6 am and…?
It’s just free floating cruelty and groups of mean people who apparently feel free to pick on people. It’s ridiculous and some of it has gotten better for me…
And some hasn’t. Ugh
.Maybe it’s a common thing in condos/apartments? I dunno
I do know that some of my old…as in 20 years old…psych labels are an issue with some vocal people here and that’s frightening but also…Surprisingly common! Note
to fellow believers: avoid the mental health industry as best you can! My own alphabet soup of labels is an almost never ending source of scorn and derision in my community. Ok
I have so much to be thankful for and I am increasingly truly grateful …I just also need to vent a bit and praise God while also asking for His grace and protection and mercy.
Thanks
