i'm trying to focus on God's work in my life...that, to me, is Truth, "spoken" at a personal level. OK...
So, He loves me. Yes, indeed. The surrounding community? no! I get taunted and then called a "cry baby" and/or a "wimp," etc. on a worldly level...
"the personal is political." I was poor, then on the edge of poor, now I dunno...despised, it seems, because I live OK, despite...Schizophrenia (usually a one way ticket to an impoverished, controlled under-class...sad, but true).
"...put on the Mind of Christ..." OK. That verse popped up in my head the other day, while I was talking to another Christian. time to apply this...
it -is- fun, to those on The Broad Road, to pick on low status, stigmatized people. Guess who is low-status in the world and stigmatized? If you said -this dude- , you get a point! thing is...
in light of eternity (a) and His work in my life already (b) and just...The Goodness of THE LORD, in general...
this is not bad. OK, it is kinda bad, and its just...more bullying, hooray...high school never ends, kiddo...
but before, I was bullied as someone else, on The Broad Road. Now, I'm bullied as someone who has known THE LORD for 7 years. I'm...alive (a) , which is unexpected, and also...
doing surprisingly well, all things considered. God has seen fit to bless me, and I am increasingly thankful. I just wish there was some way to go...to a place where the upstairs people didn't taunt and stomp, where I could catch some sleep, uninterrupted.
At a practical level, I think I might (?) need to get my parents involved. Welcome to life with labels: without my parents, I'd be dead. true story.
OK. Please keep praying, y'all.