IAmLovedByTheLord
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Hello! A little back ground about me is that in my previous life I have struggled with many things. I have been so relieved since I stopped fighting it and finally turned to the Lord that I had been blaspheming and trying not to believe in my entire life. When my friend convinced me to go to church I finally agreed not thinking much of it (I at first just wanted to get through what I thought would be a boring sermon to enjoy our mexican lunch tradition afterwards to be honest) but the message hit me in the heart full on. I was overwhelmed by guilt and shame and knew that I was and deserved to be judged and punished to the fullest extent for all of the awful things that I had done...
But the funny thing is that when I knelt down at the alter (I didn't even notice myself getting up and walking towards the front of the church) I didn't feel judged or hated. I still have guilt for the sins I have commited but all of a sudden all the worldly disires of the past just didn't matter anymore. I felt LOVE so strong that I can't explain it. It was too much for me to handel and I have never been so happy and felt so forgiven. Before I knew what was happening the pastor and half the church (I had been infamous in the church because of vandalism I had done in the past when I was a kid along with my other scewed beliefs I had made very vocal before when my parents made me go as a kid) was around me all praying for me and crying for ME. The least diserving person in the entire universe! I have since turned away from my previous addictions with some help of my new friends!
But the funny thing is that when I knelt down at the alter (I didn't even notice myself getting up and walking towards the front of the church) I didn't feel judged or hated. I still have guilt for the sins I have commited but all of a sudden all the worldly disires of the past just didn't matter anymore. I felt LOVE so strong that I can't explain it. It was too much for me to handel and I have never been so happy and felt so forgiven. Before I knew what was happening the pastor and half the church (I had been infamous in the church because of vandalism I had done in the past when I was a kid along with my other scewed beliefs I had made very vocal before when my parents made me go as a kid) was around me all praying for me and crying for ME. The least diserving person in the entire universe! I have since turned away from my previous addictions with some help of my new friends!