Hey All,
My heart goes out to you blessed_me23. I am sending you a big old hug.
Unfortunately, we haven't found a way to stop hatred. Just know that that one day, One Day, Oh Yes It's Coming, Satan is gonna get what's coming to him. We will be sipping on a Coke in heaven, singing the Beatles "Hello, Good Bye" song. (Let's face it, Coke is everywhere. They probably have a vending machine in heaven.)
I am so glad you are clean and sober. Please stay that way. Life can be enjoyable if you are sober. Please make wise choices in life. You still have time. Find something you love to do. Then find a way to make a living doing it. As a kid I loved making models. Cars, ships, stuff like that. I became a manufacturing person that put stuff together for a living. I loved going to work. You see what I mean?
Choose friends that pull you forward instead of hold you back. Again, please make wise choices about where you hang out. Don't be in places where you are likely to hear racism. If you hear it, and it affects you like you describe, you gotta pass it on to the Lord. Like Jesus on the cross, "Father, forgive them. They know not what they do." He will take your burden. Then you get back up and start walking that straight and narrow way. Straight and narrow way is not just a saying in Scripture. It is a key to life. It will put joy in your heart. If there is joy in your heart, guess what? All that other stuff goes away. You know why? Ain't no room for it. Joy will let happiness in. But not hatred or anger or anything like that.
Well I've rambled on enough for now. Again, welcome blessed_me23. I hope this helps you.
Keep walking everybody.
May God bless,
Taz