I am new to this forum, and I need prayer. I am 47 and have been widowed for a little over a year and a half. About a month ago I met a man online who I started talking to. He is a christian too, and I was very excited to meet someone who thinks the way I do. We clicked really well, and have been talking pretty much every day, and had gotten pretty close, and had planned to meet last week he was going to come to my town. He ended up not being able to come because of work, and I suggested to him that I come visit him. He didn't think he would be able to spend alot of time with me because of his work. So I took it upon myself to go see him and not tell him til I was almost there. He seemed ok with this, and I did get to meet him and spend about 3 hours with him. I did not get to see him again because of his work, but I was ok with that as it wasn't his fault. We had planned to meet halfway tomorrow, and lately I can tell he has been pulling away. He is very cautious, and I'm wondering if I scared him by coming to see him & basically pushing myself on him. Anyway, I do trust him and trust that he is a good guy, and would not just leave me hanging, but I am really having trouble with this emotionally. I miss him so much, and can't stop crying. I am trying to be in my Bible and trust God that if it's His will it will all work out, and I'll be ok, but I feel like my heart is breaking. I have done this before, thinking he wasn't going to call, and panicked, and it all ended up being ok. I'm so worried that I won't talk to him, and know where he stands etc. So I would ask for prayer for peace for me, and for my frame of mind, and that he will contact me so I can have some closure for this or whether we move forward etc. It's so hard for me to even think of God's will in this, as emotionally I feel so much pain and loss right now.
Thanks,
K
Thanks,
K