[__ Prayer __] Prison

[Essenaut]

I'm asking for prayers to stop feeling like God is imprisoning me and holding me back. I already know the rhetoric of "well you keep yourself back," yet no matter how hard I try, like clockwork, the universe gets in the way and I can only assume God is imprisoning me to be stuck in the same spot. And at my level of social failure and friendlessness I find it harder and harder to care. I care less about myself daily. I've considered trying a diet of the least healthy foods that will keep me looking fit since it's the most hedonistic thing I can do before drugs, and I'm just not interested in living long.

 

[ezra]

I'm asking for prayers to stop feeling like God is imprisoning me and holding me back. I already know the rhetoric of "well you keep yourself back," yet no matter how hard I try, like clockwork, the universe gets in the way and I can only assume God is imprisoning me to be stuck in the same spot. And at my level of social failure and friendlessness I find it harder and harder to care. I care less about myself daily. I've considered trying a diet of the least healthy foods that will keep me looking fit since it's the most hedonistic thing I can do before drugs, and I'm just not interested in living long.

one thing is going to depend on your out come..... how bad do you want to overcome this? read Romans chapter 8 you need christian counseling your worst enemy is you. if you had my social level you would be in worse shape once again christian counsel is what you need.you need a local church and a good hearted pastor

 

[Razeontherock]

Agreed that the symptom of 'social failure and friendlessness' probably says more about society than it does you. A good Church is God's intended solution! A good Church looks nothing like the world, and is mostly opposite. If the world hates you? That's the best indication you're doing some important things right, per God's perspective. And what else matters?

So - find a good Church! Easier said than done, but a lot easier than finding food that'll kill you but keep you looking good, such a diet doesn't exist.