Hi,
I am a South African who now lives permanently in California. I was born again in 1995 and have had a really rocky walk with the Lord. I have been suffering from deep, deep, profound life-changing depression this year (long story) and my faith is on really shaky ground. I have many questions I have never thought to ask before so that is one of the reasons I joined.
This depression I am fighting right now has robbed my of my memory, my concentration and sometimes the will to live or even fight this disease. I don't have a church and there really isn't a good one nearby. That is why I need you guys. I just need a little support and help with some questions.
I am a RN who works in an administrative department in a hospital. The people I work with are atheists, agnostics and Catholics. There is one other person who is into Free Masonry with regards to the Rainbow girls and The Order of the Eastern Star which are not christian organizations. She claims to be Methodist but her life demonstrates otherwise.
Please don't misunderstand me, I am not judging life-styles, but I am at a really low point in my life right now and working daily with these people is taking a terrible toll on me. I have no defenses and right now it is all I can do to get through the day. There are days when I want to end it all but I love my husband far too much and I know that is not the solution to the problem.
The office I work in is filled with malicious gossip and backstabbing and people frequently take Jesus' name in vain. Almost everyone at work is into gambling as a form of entertainment as the Indian casinos are huge out here. They see no problem with wasting their money. I am also only 34 where most people in the office are in their late 50s to early 60s. There is a huge age gap. Negativity and criticism are rampant. It is an awful place to work.
I really hate the environment. If anyone here has ever experienced depression before you will know that it takes your hope away, it erodes your faith and the world becomes a dark place to live. Now imagine living like that and then coming to this place every day to work all day, every day.
I don't mean to sound like a pessimist but I just want to talk and fellowship with people who believe what I do.
Take care
Gms1976
I am a South African who now lives permanently in California. I was born again in 1995 and have had a really rocky walk with the Lord. I have been suffering from deep, deep, profound life-changing depression this year (long story) and my faith is on really shaky ground. I have many questions I have never thought to ask before so that is one of the reasons I joined.
This depression I am fighting right now has robbed my of my memory, my concentration and sometimes the will to live or even fight this disease. I don't have a church and there really isn't a good one nearby. That is why I need you guys. I just need a little support and help with some questions.
I am a RN who works in an administrative department in a hospital. The people I work with are atheists, agnostics and Catholics. There is one other person who is into Free Masonry with regards to the Rainbow girls and The Order of the Eastern Star which are not christian organizations. She claims to be Methodist but her life demonstrates otherwise.
Please don't misunderstand me, I am not judging life-styles, but I am at a really low point in my life right now and working daily with these people is taking a terrible toll on me. I have no defenses and right now it is all I can do to get through the day. There are days when I want to end it all but I love my husband far too much and I know that is not the solution to the problem.
The office I work in is filled with malicious gossip and backstabbing and people frequently take Jesus' name in vain. Almost everyone at work is into gambling as a form of entertainment as the Indian casinos are huge out here. They see no problem with wasting their money. I am also only 34 where most people in the office are in their late 50s to early 60s. There is a huge age gap. Negativity and criticism are rampant. It is an awful place to work.
I really hate the environment. If anyone here has ever experienced depression before you will know that it takes your hope away, it erodes your faith and the world becomes a dark place to live. Now imagine living like that and then coming to this place every day to work all day, every day.
I don't mean to sound like a pessimist but I just want to talk and fellowship with people who believe what I do.
Take care
Gms1976
but I'm glad you're here.
