Christ_empowered
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yup. me again.
As persecution goes, I have it easy. I think someone tried to kick my front door in (again). This time, I have an alarm system, so the cops were auto-called. no one's laid a hand on me or anything, and...yeah. its just...
the mind-game, weird waxing and waning is what's getting to me. last night, I ran into a family dollar in a decent part of time. sugar craving, they have good prices. so....there was a young(ish) couple, maybe 25-30, with a cute baby. the man kept making snarky comments about me, and I do.not.know him or her or...??? I'm 38, so they're a bit young to even remember from me "back then," in my hometown area (I moved back about 12 years ago). and...
"he's nothing -special- " was the man's last comment, before he got into his vehicle as I was getting into mine. I didn't have an emo breakdown over it (LOL), but again: whaaa? I don't know the dude. I said exactly -0- to him or the wife, etc. And its been...more like that, all over the small city I live in, for a while now. waxes and wanes. "he -needs- be committed!" is another refrain. thing is...
I go to a community/state subsidized/funded clinic. ordinarily....well, they're not -supposed- to do things like its the 50s, but I have my doubts. but, God is Good! I see a counselor every 6-8 weeks and drop in for med checks every 3, 4 months or so. no need for any hospitalization, much less commitment, much less being sent to what little remains of the state hospital. so, I dunno. I had similar junk and jibber jabber maybe 2,3 weeks ago in a local Aldi. just pushing my cart, loading up on goods, and some lady...
trying to use that deliberately calm, cool and collected, overly proper enunciation kind of voice..."he needs to be in the state hospital in () !" and stuff like that. but...??? who...are you? and who am -I- , just some now healthy, now smart, now normal 38 year old Christian man in the crowd...
that -these- sorts of comments are happening?
blah. it'd be one thing if I thought "help" was the goal, but...nah, not so much. long story...its more about attempts at control and destruction, and I think of it more as persecution -now- than I did when it happened in years past (truly saved for almost 10 years now, Praise God!) -because- of His handiwork. Its like...these random people I don't know are openly accusing, openly taunting...
and I think its more because of His work in my life and my parents' lives than it is because of my past, per se. My past -was- terrible, but -this- set of jibber jabber would not be happening if He had not seen fit to redeem me and restore me, etc. so...there's that. A cousin who emails me now and then encouraged me to think of it as a sort of hidden compliment; this means my faith is real, His work in my life is real, and I am, in fact, Born Again. positive spin...? eh. I do think that's a Biblically-sound way of looking at it.
OK. As always... thanks!
As persecution goes, I have it easy. I think someone tried to kick my front door in (again). This time, I have an alarm system, so the cops were auto-called. no one's laid a hand on me or anything, and...yeah. its just...
the mind-game, weird waxing and waning is what's getting to me. last night, I ran into a family dollar in a decent part of time. sugar craving, they have good prices. so....there was a young(ish) couple, maybe 25-30, with a cute baby. the man kept making snarky comments about me, and I do.not.know him or her or...??? I'm 38, so they're a bit young to even remember from me "back then," in my hometown area (I moved back about 12 years ago). and...
"he's nothing -special- " was the man's last comment, before he got into his vehicle as I was getting into mine. I didn't have an emo breakdown over it (LOL), but again: whaaa? I don't know the dude. I said exactly -0- to him or the wife, etc. And its been...more like that, all over the small city I live in, for a while now. waxes and wanes. "he -needs- be committed!" is another refrain. thing is...
I go to a community/state subsidized/funded clinic. ordinarily....well, they're not -supposed- to do things like its the 50s, but I have my doubts. but, God is Good! I see a counselor every 6-8 weeks and drop in for med checks every 3, 4 months or so. no need for any hospitalization, much less commitment, much less being sent to what little remains of the state hospital. so, I dunno. I had similar junk and jibber jabber maybe 2,3 weeks ago in a local Aldi. just pushing my cart, loading up on goods, and some lady...
trying to use that deliberately calm, cool and collected, overly proper enunciation kind of voice..."he needs to be in the state hospital in () !" and stuff like that. but...??? who...are you? and who am -I- , just some now healthy, now smart, now normal 38 year old Christian man in the crowd...
that -these- sorts of comments are happening?
blah. it'd be one thing if I thought "help" was the goal, but...nah, not so much. long story...its more about attempts at control and destruction, and I think of it more as persecution -now- than I did when it happened in years past (truly saved for almost 10 years now, Praise God!) -because- of His handiwork. Its like...these random people I don't know are openly accusing, openly taunting...
and I think its more because of His work in my life and my parents' lives than it is because of my past, per se. My past -was- terrible, but -this- set of jibber jabber would not be happening if He had not seen fit to redeem me and restore me, etc. so...there's that. A cousin who emails me now and then encouraged me to think of it as a sort of hidden compliment; this means my faith is real, His work in my life is real, and I am, in fact, Born Again. positive spin...? eh. I do think that's a Biblically-sound way of looking at it.
OK. As always... thanks!
