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-sigh-
my cousin...he's born again, full time ministry now...says spiritual warfare is sort of like a backhand compliment. it means you're genuinely saved. LOL. :-(
but seriously...tension had been rising at the apt. complex, before I moved. people saying things about me at 3, 4 in the AM, outside my window. so, maybe 1 month and 2 weeks ago, I am blessed with a place my parents own but I get to live in. They have the $$$ now, by God's grace...this despite numerous attempts to get them fired, etc...and now I"m drug free, booze free, even cigarettes free and generally leading a law abiding, relatively normal(ish) life, so...OK. not that I -deserve- it, but they can do this for me and it'll be OK, because...I'm not a scary, crazy, out of control individual, not now. and so...
let's just say, "other stuff" has been happening that pretty much shows me that the evil one is still working around me. its strange, because...rationally, you'd think people would simmer down and leave me alone now. the day before thanksgiving, some people were yelling out at my front door area about how "you ain't nothing fancy, you don't have the $$$ for a lawyer," etc. thing about it is...
a lot of this is because i was basically set up to go to prison upon returning home, age 26/27. long story...had mama not had the time, money, and inclination to get a good lawyer, i probably would be in prison or maybe, just maybe the state mental hospital...
i ended up with a seriously reduced charge and probation. by the grace of God, I completed probation successfully...in fact, they let me off a good bit early...and now I'm living semi-independently, despite my...errrr...various labels, the big one being "schizophrenia." and so...
its kind of dawned on me that the only people i matter to are my parents, at least....around here. not their colleagues, not their small circle of semi-friends....pretty much my parents. at least I Have that much, you know? so...
there you have it. i was fully expected to march off to prison, hahaha, and now im off probation for a significantly reduced charge, law abiding, healthy, and...
oh, yeah; healthy. i had physical health problems like whoa...liver damage, untreated HIV, obvious brain damage, etc. I don't now, and I even look a tad bit younger than many, maybe most, 34 year old men. oh, and i was ugly...now im kinda pretty (In a manly way, LOL). on and on it goes...
I just...I guess I thought and assumed the pushback would stop, eventually...not wax and wane but never really -stop-. i dont think itd be better anywhere else, either...id be more vulnerable, without my parents.
ok. so...please pray about the spiritual warfare, please. thanks.
my cousin...he's born again, full time ministry now...says spiritual warfare is sort of like a backhand compliment. it means you're genuinely saved. LOL. :-(
but seriously...tension had been rising at the apt. complex, before I moved. people saying things about me at 3, 4 in the AM, outside my window. so, maybe 1 month and 2 weeks ago, I am blessed with a place my parents own but I get to live in. They have the $$$ now, by God's grace...this despite numerous attempts to get them fired, etc...and now I"m drug free, booze free, even cigarettes free and generally leading a law abiding, relatively normal(ish) life, so...OK. not that I -deserve- it, but they can do this for me and it'll be OK, because...I'm not a scary, crazy, out of control individual, not now. and so...
let's just say, "other stuff" has been happening that pretty much shows me that the evil one is still working around me. its strange, because...rationally, you'd think people would simmer down and leave me alone now. the day before thanksgiving, some people were yelling out at my front door area about how "you ain't nothing fancy, you don't have the $$$ for a lawyer," etc. thing about it is...
a lot of this is because i was basically set up to go to prison upon returning home, age 26/27. long story...had mama not had the time, money, and inclination to get a good lawyer, i probably would be in prison or maybe, just maybe the state mental hospital...
i ended up with a seriously reduced charge and probation. by the grace of God, I completed probation successfully...in fact, they let me off a good bit early...and now I'm living semi-independently, despite my...errrr...various labels, the big one being "schizophrenia." and so...
its kind of dawned on me that the only people i matter to are my parents, at least....around here. not their colleagues, not their small circle of semi-friends....pretty much my parents. at least I Have that much, you know? so...
there you have it. i was fully expected to march off to prison, hahaha, and now im off probation for a significantly reduced charge, law abiding, healthy, and...
oh, yeah; healthy. i had physical health problems like whoa...liver damage, untreated HIV, obvious brain damage, etc. I don't now, and I even look a tad bit younger than many, maybe most, 34 year old men. oh, and i was ugly...now im kinda pretty (In a manly way, LOL). on and on it goes...
I just...I guess I thought and assumed the pushback would stop, eventually...not wax and wane but never really -stop-. i dont think itd be better anywhere else, either...id be more vulnerable, without my parents.
ok. so...please pray about the spiritual warfare, please. thanks.
