Taking a leap of faith here

[Ciara]

Donate to Mental illness sucks, organized by Ciara B

Hi I'm Ciara, honestly I don't want to do this at all because for one I don't like handouts and I'm sure … Ciara B needs your support for Mental illness sucks

gofund.me

Hi, first off I’m needing prayers more than anything. Thank you for anyone who actually reads my GoFundMe page, regardless of donations or not. Either way it’s nice to be heard and have more awareness on the topic. Trust me, there is still much stigma around mental illness which is sad because I mean seriously it’s 2022! If you’ve never gone through mental illness or had someone close to you with mental illness you would probably think there wasn’t any stigma issue, but unfortunately it is still a big problem.

I don’t have social media and I’m not sharing this with family to share with more family because I don’t want the shaming and pity looks or comments. It’s easier to share with strangers. I’m already ashamed enough as it is about what I go through. I know my situation might seem miniscule to what others are going through around the world, and it is, and I know it could be so much worse. It’s taken me a long time to come to realize the fact that my life and my situation does matter even though I still struggle with that because it is hard to feel significant by any means. It was difficult enough to put up a GoFundMe page and more difficult sharing this with strangers on here. Please be kind, thank you.

 

[for_his_glory]

Hi Ciara and welcome to CF

Never be ashamed at those things you struggle with as you are never alone as even now Christ is walking beside you and knows all you are dealing with. You are blessed to have your parents to live with at this difficult time of your life. Are you on any types of meds for your disorder and do you have any support groups around you that might help you deal with this?

One of our members evenifigoalone in which I tagged to this thread maybe she can give you better advice since she deals with these things. All I can do is pray for you and also to tell you to try to spend time with Jesus who is your best counselor in helping you walk through this as you build upon your relationship with Him.

Mental illness is an area that needs to be made aware of as many deal with this everyday. I hope you continue to advocate for this awareness and that you will receive the help you need for this. As far as the GoFundMe I will be honest that not to many will give to this seeing that they do not know you and with all the scams out there today (not saying you are scamming so please do not think I am implying this) many are very leery when it comes to personal causes.

Hope you stick around and share in the many topics here

 

[evenifigoalone]

Hi Ciara. People don't tend to understand how disabling depression and anxiety can be. There is a growing sentiment that "mental health matters!", but people tend to only show support when it's something they can somewhat understand. People feel like they can kinda understand depression and anxiety, until it looks like.... never leaving the house, neglecting even your most basic needs, neglecting hygiene, going years unemployed..... they think these things are caused by laziness and not overwhelming symptoms of mental illness.

I have ADHD, (probably seasonal) depression, and deal with mild to moderate anxiety, as well as OCD tendencies. For me the most disabling has been ADHD, which had me unemployed for several years - the others are not as bad.
I get anxiety at work often. I work at a grocery store, and it's worse when it's crowded and noisy. Yesterday was Super Bowl Sunday, so it was extremely busy. My anxiety was through the roof and I held my fidget toy in one hand and scanned groceries with the other. Just having something to hold did help at least a little bit.

I myself am in a rough spot financially, so I'm not sure if I can donate much. When my paycheck hits tonight I'll see if I can help you some.

If you have a diagnosis already, I'm assuming that you have been to a mental health clinic. If you aren't already in therapy, once you can afford it definitely go shopping for a good therapist and look up what kind of therapy they can offer - talk therapy isn't bad, but imo it's more suited for people who are going through grief or something than it is for a chronic mental illness.
Sometimes there will be a community mental health clinic with state funding that you can get in on a sliding scale - the one I go to offers their services free for anyone making less than a certain amount per year.

There is also stuff you can do on your own to improve your mental health, but I don't know what you have and haven't done and I imagine you've heard it all anyways.