[__ Prayer __] ten years since the OD

[Christ_empowered]

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[Fish Catcher Jim]

Almost 10 years ago, I landed in a private, for profit mental hospital following a massive OD on xanax, klonopin, and ativan. I didn't know it then, but they electroshocked me. I was given more ECT less than 3 years later in another hospital in another part of the state. And now...

...now I have a terrible reputation. I'm also a completely different person, only by Christ's grace. Somehow, I got saved 2 years ago. I say "somehow" because I was living in an electroshocked fairy land.

I'm just now waking up. Maybe I am awake, I dunno. Sometimes, I think there's an element of judgment in all this. That OD should have killed me. I didn't move towards Christ until after round #2 of involuntary ECT, after getting bashed on the head w/ a pipe in a bad part of the city. That should have killed me, too. Was a taste of God's judgment, His wrath a part of this? I dunno...

Strange...I'm lucid, I write well enough for Liberty, my cognitive skills have sharpened and seem to be getting better. The mental health pros who actually treat me say "recovery," and I agree. Recovery. Good enough. People around me say I "developed schizophrenia," ex-shrinks have shared all my confidential info with lots of people, blah blah blah.

I won't always write about this, I promise. Its just...I'm so low status around here, you know? Nobody wants to hear what I say. I think that's why I've posted here so much, why I talk to my older, wiser Pentecostal friend often, sometimes daily.

I pray I can move away sometime in the future. Can't right now. Misdemeanor probation, and that's a blessing. My newly affluent people hired a good attorney after bonding me out. I sent an ex-shrink emails about my treatment and such. Uppity mental patients don't last long in today's society, lol. Maybe we never have. Could have been a felony. Even with the "excellent attorney" (exact words of my sentencing judge), I was sentenced to the max for a class A misdemeanor, which was then suspended to probation. To be mad in America is to be a second class citizen...

But God is faithful and God is good (all the time). I do Orthomolecular now. Its this high dose vitamin, amino acid, mineral, and antioxidant combo originally developed for mental patients in 1950s canada. I know, kind of obscure, lol. Now that I'm more connected to reality, I kind of question the wisdom of popping all these vitamins (did I tell you that I take 12 grams of vitamin C daily?!?!). If it ain't broke, don't fix it...better all these vitamins than more and more pharmaceuticals.

As always, I'm beggin' for prayer. Pray that I wake up, fully. Pray that I stay free and safe, please. Pray that God directs my foot steps (and that I cooperate, lol).

Most of all...I guess I just need prayer to know that the nightmare, the ex-shrinks' reign of terror, the years of scorn and derision and contempt, have truly come to an end, or will sometime soon. Thanks.

As ALWAYS my Friend we will be praying since we are ALWAYS praying over you and the FAVOR of God.
Now I am going to divide this reply into three parts......OK now it is Four Parts

The first part is a simple reminder for you...BOLDLY YOU MUST BE

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The second is simply this.....THIS IS YOU......SO BOLDY GO UNTO THE FATHER

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The third is....THIS IS YOU MY FRIEND....USE IT BOLDY AND WALK LIKE IT BOLDLY

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The Fourth Part...THIS IS YOU MY FRIEND.....BOLDY SPEAK, BOLDY ACT, BOLDY RECEIVE

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Perhaps I should make this longer...... 2
Any way know that you know that you are always covered in prayer..
Love you brother
Jim

 

[AirDancer]

Our Lord's plans for you also includes a time-table in accordance with His Will. I can assure you, my friend, that there will be times when you're forward movement in growth will be speedy; other times, the forward progression will be slower.

Stay faithful and focused, Christ_empowered, and you'll continue to grow stronger each and every day in our Lord. He loves you so much!

 

[Cturtle]

Thank You Father for surrounding Christ_empowered with Your presence! We pray ps 91 over him, and thank You for blessing him with all that you have for him. Thank You Father for protecting him and for instilling within him Your godly wisdom. Thank You Father for giving him Your peace that passes all of his understanding, and for the Holy Spirit that is always there to lead him and guide him. Because he is Your sheep, and he knows Your voice! Thank You Father for reminding him of Jeremiah 29:11-13 daily and for constantly keeping him aware of Your will for his life, that as he commits all of his plans unto You that You will cause his thoughts to line up with Your will, so that his plans will be established and succeed.
In Jesus Name i pray, Amen!