thanks for posting on all this. i like your writing, btw. i think the internet can be an excellent tool for people "going thru it," so to speak. i overwhelmed this place with my -stuff-, and now...
i can actually contribute to other peoples' lives, by the grace of God.
I cannot claim to "feel your pain," and I wouldn't say that, anyway, because I'm not a pseudo-empath, but...
Jesus knows. Verna...when Ronnie died, it wasn't sudden or unexpected, but it was partly due to some hardcore bad medical "care," so...there's still some anger there...anyway...
Jesus has seen her thru it, big time. Even when her (adult) kids turned on her, even when her (also, adult) grand-kids used her and flim flammed her out of some much needed $$$....
Jesus was there. I think Jesus put her in my life so we could be a comfort to each other...and He's doing similar things in your life, it seems.
I only had 1 real "boyfriend" in my gay daze. He died, about 1 year ago. I just now found out, thru The Google. He'd moved to the EU w/ a new bf, but the obituary was from his old stomping grounds here in The South. :-( he may have been...40, 41 when he died. I'm guessing either drugs or HIV/AIDS...maybe suicide. nothing good, anyway. With his death, it was kinda like...the former existence is gone, gone, gone....and since there is no real love in sodomy, anyway....what was the point, again? -sad times-
my dad's long term friend died, of suicide. she was about 10 years older than dad. her husband is a good bit younger. she had all kindsa health probs, he was reasonably vibrant...maybe that was part of it? good woman. i was a brat to her in my teens...and that was the last time we had a real conversation.
ok. thanks for staying with CFnet. seriously. life happens, friction happens...people go somewhere else on The Internet or just...go away, at any rate.
im glad technology can help connect us all with what we need, not just...factoids and amazon prime.
May God comfort and bless you.