[__ Prayer __] TJ

[Christ_empowered]

I thought about using her full name, but...you know...I've already put too much on here, LOL. Anyway...

This is serious. She's known my parents for 25 years. She was an artist, and a good one. As she got older, she developed some health problems, and...

she's apparently dead now, of suicide. It got to be too, too much.

Suicide is a particularly hard thing to grieve, I think...even if one understands the "why's" of it all. Mama said she wants to crawl into her own inner space and just...be. I'm at my place, dad's gone off somewhere, mama's at home with the house dog, and...

I Just...don't know. I was never close to TJ, and i was a bratty teenager the last time I saw her and actually spoke to and with her. blah. Kind of ashamed, actually.

She's leavning behind a partner/husband, Jim. He's also an artist. And...lots of people who dealt with them have been hit hard, at a number of levels.

I feel so judgmental saying this, but...its true...May God have mercy on her, please.

Thanks.

 

[Tessa]

Suicide is a very hard thing to cope with for the people they have left behind. They go through all sorts of "... I should have realised." ".... I should have been able to stop them." They feel terrible guilt - usually. Questioning themselves if anything they did made them feel worse.

But it was the persons decision in the end. We don't know what torment they are going through. They must not be able to see any other way around their problems. So tragic and sad.

Praying for all her family and friends and all who knew her. God alone knew her heart and He is a God of Justice and Love.