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my big outing today was to the local chain discount grocery place. OK. so...
some people I did not recognize -- I never do recognize them, honestly -- talked about me being a "gold digger" and various pills and junk from psych labels, and...
all in all, I think I handled it well -- by His grace. Seriously. In Christ, I've been recreated into a healthy and smart and remarkably...imperfect, obviously, but -whole- human being...
who remains an outcast. lol. Honestly, I'm wondering if maybe spiritual warfare in cases like mine is...not -more intense- , but cuts deep, and in different ways. Never treated for a myriad of serious health problems. Healthy. "he should be in the state hospital!" and... " he was ungrateful. his parents are -not allowed- to support him" and "the doctors did a good job, he shouldn't have filed a complaint..."
on and on and on. blah. I come off as whinier than I am. I'm actually -- again, by His grace -- doing OK with it. Got some bread warming in the oven, plans with the parents for tomorrow...life is good, actually. My life in Christ is good, because Jesus Christ is truly, amazingly Good.
Its just...now, going into 10 years post-genuine conversion...my former friends were never friends, and I think that the post-conversion "friend shedding" I've read about took on some intensity in my case because of...everything. And...in some ways, its helpful, I guess...
to go out and with the heckling, realize: the broad road -is- rough and dangerous, and it becomes....if not more rough and dangerous for Christians, then differently rough and dangerous. lies and exaggerations and straight up slander...comes with the territory, per Scripture. so, I guess its kind of like a compliment, of sorts? That my conversion is genuine, and He has worked and is truly working in my life? OK....
doing better, I promise. timer just went off, time for a snack. please pray for my parents and me. Thanks.
some people I did not recognize -- I never do recognize them, honestly -- talked about me being a "gold digger" and various pills and junk from psych labels, and...
all in all, I think I handled it well -- by His grace. Seriously. In Christ, I've been recreated into a healthy and smart and remarkably...imperfect, obviously, but -whole- human being...
who remains an outcast. lol. Honestly, I'm wondering if maybe spiritual warfare in cases like mine is...not -more intense- , but cuts deep, and in different ways. Never treated for a myriad of serious health problems. Healthy. "he should be in the state hospital!" and... " he was ungrateful. his parents are -not allowed- to support him" and "the doctors did a good job, he shouldn't have filed a complaint..."
on and on and on. blah. I come off as whinier than I am. I'm actually -- again, by His grace -- doing OK with it. Got some bread warming in the oven, plans with the parents for tomorrow...life is good, actually. My life in Christ is good, because Jesus Christ is truly, amazingly Good.
Its just...now, going into 10 years post-genuine conversion...my former friends were never friends, and I think that the post-conversion "friend shedding" I've read about took on some intensity in my case because of...everything. And...in some ways, its helpful, I guess...
to go out and with the heckling, realize: the broad road -is- rough and dangerous, and it becomes....if not more rough and dangerous for Christians, then differently rough and dangerous. lies and exaggerations and straight up slander...comes with the territory, per Scripture. so, I guess its kind of like a compliment, of sorts? That my conversion is genuine, and He has worked and is truly working in my life? OK....
doing better, I promise. timer just went off, time for a snack. please pray for my parents and me. Thanks.
