I_love_Springtime
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I've always been a troubled soul. Troubled as a child, troubled as a teenager, and troubled as an adult. The first time I got serious about God, I got a serious mental breakdown. Eventually I was diagnosed with bipolar and schizophrenia disorders. I was 20 years old when I first got serious about God, and now I'm 46. I can't say it's gotten any better gradually or at all through those years. I have grown in my knowledge of God, Jesus, and theology. But I have never been able to believe it for me - that Jesus died for His people, but I wasn't included. Somehow I trusted in God, but not in Jesus. Jesus was always mad at me, telling me I'm in the brood of vipers and a Pharisee who is blind. So I questioned my faith. Maybe I had no faith. Maybe I'm a blasphemer of His Holy Spirit. I've been a troubled soul.
Tonight, Jesus spoke directly to me through the Scriptures. John 14:1. "Let not your hearts be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me."
Or, to expand the meaning a bit, "You trust in God, trust also in Me."
It's a command to trust in Jesus, and somehow that command turned my trouble into joy. I think people whose trust has been stomped on in life may have a hard time trusting another human being who is offering the same kind of security. I trusted God, who seemed bigger or more influential than Jesus. But on the other hand, I knew Jesus was God. Just not in my heart. So I will always come back to John 14:1 in order to remind myself I can trust Jesus.
Tonight, Jesus spoke directly to me through the Scriptures. John 14:1. "Let not your hearts be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me."
Or, to expand the meaning a bit, "You trust in God, trust also in Me."
It's a command to trust in Jesus, and somehow that command turned my trouble into joy. I think people whose trust has been stomped on in life may have a hard time trusting another human being who is offering the same kind of security. I trusted God, who seemed bigger or more influential than Jesus. But on the other hand, I knew Jesus was God. Just not in my heart. So I will always come back to John 14:1 in order to remind myself I can trust Jesus.