Christ_empowered
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- Oct 23, 2010
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ok. I'm blessed! Lemme just say that, 1st. its a long, drawn out, sad sad story (My life...before Jesus...), that I've (re)told way too many times, already, and...
a bit over 7 years into actually -Knowing Jesus- , He's seen fit that I also -Know Change- , which...has been awesome, actually. not always fun, but good, productive, beneficial, etc.
so, for a number of reasons, I'm labeled and ridiculed and not well-liked (under-statement) in my area. what -freaks me out- is how people I -do not know- will say things, in gas stations (I pre-pay for gas), in grocery stores, etc. Oh, and...in traffic, even. I'm only 15 minutes from my small, southern hometown (parents are still there...they're amazing people, btw), and now I live...in a small, southern city. lol.
-some- people seem to have a major problem with me. I'm currently labeled (in the community) with Schizophrenia. I do have an official diagnosis, but I'm not sure that it's Schizophrenia...
not that it matters, much. "high functioning Schizophrenia," "Bipolar I w/psychotic features..." honestly, what's the difference? I don't see one.
I've overheard neighbors (probably because they wanted me to overhear, I see that now...) talking about "calling the cops" and "when is he going away?" and "he needs to be committed," etc. and...
-sigh- again, I'm blessed. Truth? it would appear that I have a clean background check. that...is...some serious divine intervention, trust me. and...
-ugh- I just get frustrated. but then, i started thinking about it, and...the neighbors are probably frustrated, too...in their own lives, that is...
and I"m not saying that to sound condescending or holier than thou, just...i can't come up with any other reason why some frustrating, borderline harassing behavior would happen...
unless they're unhappy and frustrated, on the broad road...
just like I was, until Jesus took mercy upon me and I got genuinely saved. so, been there, done that...
-doesn't change the fact that it irks me- not super-furious or anything, just...oh man, I'd like to be left alone. I think that's reasonable.
ok. this was part venting, part....wanna join in praying for my neighborhood bullies, along with my other: enemies, those who despitefully use me and speak all matter of evil against me, falsely?
Thanks.
a bit over 7 years into actually -Knowing Jesus- , He's seen fit that I also -Know Change- , which...has been awesome, actually. not always fun, but good, productive, beneficial, etc.
so, for a number of reasons, I'm labeled and ridiculed and not well-liked (under-statement) in my area. what -freaks me out- is how people I -do not know- will say things, in gas stations (I pre-pay for gas), in grocery stores, etc. Oh, and...in traffic, even. I'm only 15 minutes from my small, southern hometown (parents are still there...they're amazing people, btw), and now I live...in a small, southern city. lol.
-some- people seem to have a major problem with me. I'm currently labeled (in the community) with Schizophrenia. I do have an official diagnosis, but I'm not sure that it's Schizophrenia...
not that it matters, much. "high functioning Schizophrenia," "Bipolar I w/psychotic features..." honestly, what's the difference? I don't see one.
I've overheard neighbors (probably because they wanted me to overhear, I see that now...) talking about "calling the cops" and "when is he going away?" and "he needs to be committed," etc. and...
-sigh- again, I'm blessed. Truth? it would appear that I have a clean background check. that...is...some serious divine intervention, trust me. and...
-ugh- I just get frustrated. but then, i started thinking about it, and...the neighbors are probably frustrated, too...in their own lives, that is...
and I"m not saying that to sound condescending or holier than thou, just...i can't come up with any other reason why some frustrating, borderline harassing behavior would happen...
unless they're unhappy and frustrated, on the broad road...
just like I was, until Jesus took mercy upon me and I got genuinely saved. so, been there, done that...
-doesn't change the fact that it irks me- not super-furious or anything, just...oh man, I'd like to be left alone. I think that's reasonable.
ok. this was part venting, part....wanna join in praying for my neighborhood bullies, along with my other: enemies, those who despitefully use me and speak all matter of evil against me, falsely?
Thanks.
but they need Jesus as much as we do because He died for them as well,.. and we've all done idiotic things before except for Christ. :yes