Original poster Update - Thanks again to all who prayed for me! I started my new job last Tuesday! I had suffered another rejection and then within two weeks had an offer from another company I interviewed with.
I have to admit I'm still struggling a little. I was out of work for 9 months and jumping back into a job has been jarring - I have that fish-out-of-water feeling like they expect more out of me than I'm ready to take on. Also, there have been a few red flags I've noticed about this company, where they say they want to ease me into the role but are doing the opposite. I'm also not entirely sure I wanted this kind of role but I needed a job.
Isn't it funny how we can still be unhappy when we get the thing we were praying so hard for?
Has anyone else experienced this?
I'm trying to keep this all in perspective because the company isn't that bad, the job isn't that bad and I haven't been the new girl in 11 years now so I need to just take it one day at a time (that's my mom's motto - and speaking of, she had a health crisis recently that has reminded me I could lose either of my parents sooner than I think)
Thanks again for the prayers!
Well I'm really glad that you found a job. You and your family will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.