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[wheretoturn86]

Please listen to what happened to me when I was 16 years old. Everything that I am telling you is the honest truth.

Growing up, my mother was deeply involved with the occult, as was her mother, great grandmother, great great grandmother and so on...

My father comes from a family that were in the red army for generations and they have always been prone to violence and power.

Growing up my house has been exorcised 3 times ( I am now 25), I know it was real because of the things that happened (disembodied voices, moving objects, doors opening and slamming, running down the halls when nobody is there, my gf were frequently attacked when they slept over). Also, the one night this happened, it was more powerful than usual. The air in the one corner of my room (no window or air conditioner) was very cold and made my hair stand on end. Me and my ex-gf read the bible and prayed together until it seemed to pass. Then, she said i sat straight up while i was sleeping and threw the bible across the room.

Several years before this occurrence I was outside my house, there is a woods there and It was a clear night. I have three tall trees that are in row in my back yard, about 20 ft apart from eachother. as I walked past (my parents had a pool, so I was getting out of the pool after a night swim, my favorite) the bushes started to shuffle, i thought it was just a fox or raccoon so I did not pay it much attention. Then I noticed a shadow running from tree to tree (the three in a row). It had the shape of a man on the ground (the shadow) but there was no object present to cast the shadow. I was frozen in complete terror, I couldn't move or speak. I honestly thought I lost my mind. The shadow came up to me, and now I could see it in my mind if that makes sense? But the shadow i could still see. The spirit was half man, half goat with deep dark eyes that looked like they had flame trapped in the pupil. His "teeth" were jagged like glass, and were stained and filthy. Anyway, it said to me in a raspy whisper "you are the son". I freaked out and went in. The spirit latched onto me for months, trying to teach me to do evil things. As I resisted it became more persistent. Finally I told my mom, who thought I was a little crazy but she had seen things that were very occult/demonic before. Later that week my dad, who my mom said she did not tell this at all (he can be skeptic at times), went for a night swim. Almost the same thing happened to him, except "you are the father". He freaked and told this to my mom, who freaked and called an excorcist. After several attempts we were able to cleanse our family and the house.

It has been about 7 years since this entire traumatic experience. I am starting to have nightmares again that are bringing back these memories. I have been having dreams of deception greed and murder. The scariest part is that I feel like the persona of these dreams is starting to become ingrained into my pysche and the spirit will attempt to return. I do pray but not enough, what could all of this mean?

 

[eddy]

Please listen to what happened to me when I was 16 years old. Everything that I am telling you is the honest truth.

Growing up, my mother was deeply involved with the occult, as was her mother, great grandmother, great great grandmother and so on...

My father comes from a family that were in the red army for generations and they have always been prone to violence and power.

Growing up my house has been exorcised 3 times ( I am now 25), I know it was real because of the things that happened (disembodied voices, moving objects, doors opening and slamming, running down the halls when nobody is there, my gf were frequently attacked when they slept over). Also, the one night this happened, it was more powerful than usual. The air in the one corner of my room (no window or air conditioner) was very cold and made my hair stand on end. Me and my ex-gf read the bible and prayed together until it seemed to pass. Then, she said i sat straight up while i was sleeping and threw the bible across the room.

Several years before this occurrence I was outside my house, there is a woods there and It was a clear night. I have three tall trees that are in row in my back yard, about 20 ft apart from eachother. as I walked past (my parents had a pool, so I was getting out of the pool after a night swim, my favorite) the bushes started to shuffle, i thought it was just a fox or raccoon so I did not pay it much attention. Then I noticed a shadow running from tree to tree (the three in a row). It had the shape of a man on the ground (the shadow) but there was no object present to cast the shadow. I was frozen in complete terror, I couldn't move or speak. I honestly thought I lost my mind. The shadow came up to me, and now I could see it in my mind if that makes sense? But the shadow i could still see. The spirit was half man, half goat with deep dark eyes that looked like they had flame trapped in the pupil. His "teeth" were jagged like glass, and were stained and filthy. Anyway, it said to me in a raspy whisper "you are the son". I freaked out and went in. The spirit latched onto me for months, trying to teach me to do evil things. As I resisted it became more persistent. Finally I told my mom, who thought I was a little crazy but she had seen things that were very occult/demonic before. Later that week my dad, who my mom said she did not tell this at all (he can be skeptic at times), went for a night swim. Almost the same thing happened to him, except "you are the father". He freaked and told this to my mom, who freaked and called an excorcist. After several attempts we were able to cleanse our family and the house.

It has been about 7 years since this entire traumatic experience. I am starting to have nightmares again that are bringing back these memories. I have been having dreams of deception greed and murder. The scariest part is that I feel like the persona of these dreams is starting to become ingrained into my pysche and the spirit will attempt to return. I do pray but not enough, what could all of this mean?

It means that you may ptsd I strongly encourage you so see a doctor.

 

[wheretoturn86]

sorry, it has actually been about 8 years. The events started when I was 16 and continued until after I was 17.

when my girlfriend first moved into my home she experienced paranormal threats and spiritual attacks, but after praying performing a prayers of protection it seemed to stop. We moved about 4 months later and I told her about 10 minutes ago about my troubling dreams and feeling as though there is a negative presence. She looked shocked and said she has been having nightmares where she is burning alive and she tries to wake up and scream but she feels paralyzed.Neither of us have been able to sleep for the past two nights (I fell asleep at 7am and woke at 11am, she fell asleep around 4-5am and woke up around 12. This is uncharacteristic of us as we both work full time and are usually exhausted by 11pm). The odd thing about these dreams; I am not committing violent acts, but rather seducing masses and large groups of people to destroy one another. I know that morally I could never do this, but in the nightmare I am clearly thriving off of their suffering. I am going to the local bible store today to pick up some crucifixes to hang above the doorways. Wish me luck.

 

[wheretoturn86]

It means that you may ptsd I strongly encourage you so see a doctor.

The only problem with doing this, the doctor would likely think I'm completely loony and prescribe me some anti-psychotic medication. I came here because I knew that there must be other Christians with a level of expertise in this area. I am not insane, I graduated deans list from a good college, have a great job and am a loving son, brother and boyfriend. I could have ptsd from this event but like I said, what doctor would ever believe me.

 

[theLords]

Are you from the US? Are your parents strong believers or so-so or not very strong in the fatih?

 

[eddy]

The only problem with doing this, the doctor would likely think I'm completely loony and prescribe me some anti-psychotic medication. I came here because I knew that there must be other Christians with a level of expertise in this area. I am not insane, I graduated deans list from a good college, have a great job and am a loving son, brother and boyfriend. I could have ptsd from this event but like I said, what doctor would ever believe me.

A doctor will not just assume you are looney. They will look for a cause. There are medical problems that have psychological effects. Diabetes, arthritis, some heart conditions. Don't ignore symptoms.

 

[Gazelle]

wheretoturn86 I believe you, and what you describe is quite accurate regarding occult dealings. You haven't shared your testimony of accepting Christ, and I do indeed think this is crucial for you especially.

You need to not put off finding a minister who counsels and is also aware and not afraid of the devil nor his demons. You need personal salvation, and follow up support as accepting Christ will surely irk the demons that haunt you. Once you have the Holy Spirit within, they cannot possess you again. They will be able to oppress you (bother you in life and from the outside etc.). It is quite common that they lay claim to souls, such as through the occult being in your home through your family, and allow things to settle for a long time and then return to reclaim and make one work for satan.

This is serious, honest.

"Greater is He that is in you than he that is in the world." 1 John 4:4 KVJ Satan is the ruler of the earth, and he walks to and from seeking whom he may devour. Once you are Christ's, you can use HIS (God's) power to repel the evil, without Christ you cannot win.

You do have reason to be worried, and I think you are strong for posting that here. :heart There are Scriptures about how if a demon is cast out (whether out of a person or area it does not matter) that without the change and acceptance of Christ by the person, the demon returns with many more, making the evil stronger in powers.

Once you have truly accepted Christ, and you can do this on your own, (Romans: 3:23; 6:23; 5:28; 10:9,10, 13; 5:1; 8:1 and Romans 8:38-39, "For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." NKJV) then you can claim your home, property, pets and of course yourself as off limits and ban the demons through the blood of Christ. Satan can't stand the blood of Christ because it is through the Cross and the resurrection that Christ proved power over satan. It is through the perfect sinless offering of the Sacrificial Lamb of God, Jesus Christ, that we have power to overcome evil as well.

Let me know if I can assist you further. (You might read the book Occult Bondage and Deliverance by Dr. Kurt Koch)

I urge ongoing counseling because there may be memories that your mind is holding that you are consciously unaware of presently. As to whether or not you are suffering with PTSD, I haven't read enough of your symptoms to suggest that. You will need support as you grow in Christ...remember this, as the occult side will try and make you unusable by God by attacking your thinking and telling you that you don't need any help. ((((hug))) May God give you strength as you fight the devil. I have already asked the Father to protect you as you seek Him.

 

[wheretoturn86]

Are you from the US? Are your parents strong believers or so-so or not very strong in the fatih?

I am from the United States, my father is 100% Ukrainian, my mother is a mix of irish, german and english. My father's is first generation native to the USA. My father was raised catholic, but refuses to go back to church because "he has had enough for a lifetime". He was raised ukrainian orthodox catholic and during his childhood went to service several times a week. He even went to catholic school for a short period until he was kicked out for fighting.

My mom became very religious but not until I was around eight or nine. Prior to this she was an art teacher and a fortune teller. Her mother made astrology charts and her grandmother read tea leaves. That is all I know, although my grandmother told me that the tarot cards and astrology went back for generations.

The reason my mom became religious was because as she got deeper into the occult she started to experience attacks on our home by what she said were evil spirits. When my dad was younger he also experimented frequently with things of this nature.

 

[wheretoturn86]

wheretoturn86 I believe you, and what you describe is quite accurate regarding occult dealings. You haven't shared your testimony of accepting Christ, and I do indeed think this is crucial for you especially.

You need to not put off finding a minister who counsels and is also aware and not afraid of the devil nor his demons. You need personal salvation, and follow up support as accepting Christ will surely irk the demons that haunt you. Once you have the Holy Spirit within, they cannot possess you again. They will be able to oppress you (bother you in life and from the outside etc.). It is quite common that they lay claim to souls, such as through the occult being in your home through your family, and allow things to settle for a long time and then return to reclaim and make one work for satan.

This is serious, honest.

"Greater is He that is in you than he that is in the world." 1 John 4:4 KVJ Satan is the ruler of the earth, and he walks to and from seeking whom he may devour. Once you are Christ's, you can use HIS (God's) power to repel the evil, without Christ you cannot win.

You do have reason to be worried, and I think you are strong for posting that here. :heart There are Scriptures about how if a demon is cast out (whether out of a person or area it does not matter) that without the change and acceptance of Christ by the person, the demon returns with many more, making the evil stronger in powers.

Once you have truly accepted Christ, and you can do this on your own, (Romans: 3:23; 6:23; 5:28; 10:9,10, 13; 5:1; 8:1 and Romans 8:38-39, "For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." NKJV) then you can claim your home, property, pets and of course yourself as off limits and ban the demons through the blood of Christ. Satan can't stand the blood of Christ because it is through the Cross and the resurrection that Christ proved power over satan. It is through the perfect sinless offering of the Sacrificial Lamb of God, Jesus Christ, that we have power to overcome evil as well.

Let me know if I can assist you further. (You might read the book Occult Bondage and Deliverance by Dr. Kurt Koch)

I urge ongoing counseling because there may be memories that your mind is holding that you are consciously unaware of presently. As to whether or not you are suffering with PTSD, I haven't read enough of your symptoms to suggest that. You will need support as you grow in Christ...remember this, as the occult side will try and make you unusable by God by attacking your thinking and telling you that you don't need any help. ((((hug))) May God give you strength as you fight the devil. I have already asked the Father to protect you as you seek Him.

Thank you so much for your advice and your kind words. I keep forgetting that without constant devotion and faith this will never stop. Like you said, only through the blood of Christ and the holy ghost can I stay protected.

It is funny you mention the memories and that I can still be oppressed, this is exactly what happened for nearly six months or so after we exorcised the evil spirit. He was always trying to torment me and tempt me. The curious part was he always seemed to be the most confident around wooded areas or if there were strong drum beats (i remember going to a festival where there was a song with a heavy metal methodical drum beat, I was sitting at a table and the chair next to me slid out like someone sat next to me). I cannot imagine how much my mind has repressed, I think for a long time I just tried to ignore it like it never happened. My feelings were that by bringing it up you open yourself and give them power.

Thank you for assuring me I am doing the right thing, I cannot tell you how much it means to me that you are praying for me and for assuring me that I had to have a big heart to ask for help. I will go find a minister tomorrow, I have bought four crucifixes and hung them over the entrances to my home and room entryways as well as my bed. Thank you again for the prayers.

 

[wheretoturn86]

another sidenote, I think my girlfriend may have an attached spirit now. The reason I say this, besides uncharacteristic mood swings, is that before leaving to go for the crucifixes she kept saying it was stupid and was getting very very angry and openly opposed to having them around (when 5 minutes earlier she thought it was a good idea and told me about unsettling nightmares and the like). In my book, being aggressively opposed to the cross is never a good sign (particularly when she considers herself a Christian).

She also screamed at me, and tried to delay me as much as possible to leaving. She wouldn't even leave the car to come into the store with me, she was furious. I made it to the store at 5pm, at closing time. Thankfully, the woman running the shop saw me and unlocked the door to let me in to buy what I needed.

Eventually she came back around, its like she has no recollection of how nasty and aggressive she was about the entire subject. I really want to bring her with me when I go to speak with a minister, however she works a double shift tomorrow. Hopefully I will find someone who she would be willing to talk to during the week.

 

[Gazelle]

Wheretoturn, can I have an update on your situation? You know as you reach out for help, there will be more attacks against you, trying to keep you from seeking help from Christians so you can follow God. You and your GF need IRL support.

 

[Tidus]

I don't have much experience in this area but what I do know is what I read in the Bible: The devils are scared of Jesus' name. They trembled when Jesus came near them and they practically begged for mercy.

Jesus Christ has already won this battle- they are doomed and they know it. They have nothing left but a small amount of time, and they'll use it to drag anyone down with them that they can.

My advice is this: Call out to Jesus when any of these experiences happen. Make sure you say it out loud though:

"In the name of Jesus Christ, I command all evil spirits to be gone from this place."

It works. I heard of someone who was being chased by 3 wild dogs. He had no hope of escaping, so he just turned around and yelled out "in Jesus' name BE STILL" and he said it was like they all hit an invisible brick wall at the same time.

Demons can posses animals, probably people who let them in and I don't know exactly what else they can do, but what I know for sure is that they can't handle the name of our Lord and Savior.

Don't be scared to just say his name out loud and command them, on his authority, to be gone. Pray for the blood of Jesus to be over your dwelling place, your house, and to protect everyone in it.

If I was you I would fast about this and go to a church on Sunday, it's God's house, and just spend your day there praying and fasting, reading the word and just listening for God's voice. It could be life changing, even just one day of that.