Christ_empowered
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Ugh 
I’m just…frustrated. Some people in my area obviously hate me. Cops were picking at me in random convenience stores around the small city I live in. Now and then cops follow me. I drive a newer car
not fancy but fun. And…
Yeah
yesterday a sheriff deputy car followed me. I had to get into a left turn lane to get to my complex…it’s 20 something apartment buildings all in one community…
And he or she followed me into the turn lane. I thought oh man I’m getting some kind of ticket
. Nope.
As I turned into my complex no cop car behind me.
It isn’t that my life now is rough or even difficult…far from it. My only problem is these creepy things keep happening.
I got some new clothes. Then I got an email about an online account with a mid level department store. Haven’t used the account in at least a year. Locked! Too many failed log in attempts…
I was once in a neighboring state on my way to vacation. I was with my parents. A cop car was nearby at a chain restaurant. One of the cops pointed at me and said he’s a convicted felon. But…
The only thing on my record is a misdemeanor. I mean it’s a class a misdemeanor and I had to do probation etc…and it started as a felony before the plea deal…
But yeah file under creepy incidents that happen periodically.
I’m getting better at leaning into Christ to bear up under it. Scripture says nothing has happened to me that isn’t common to mankind so…
Yup I think a lot of my problem is not knowing what the deal is? No arrests in over 10 years now no drugs in 15 years no hospitalizations in over 15 years…
Maybe im just sheltered and or still naive for thinking that I could eventually settle in build a new life for myself within the limits of…everything…?
Ugh thanks 
I’m just…frustrated. Some people in my area obviously hate me. Cops were picking at me in random convenience stores around the small city I live in. Now and then cops follow me. I drive a newer car
not fancy but fun. And…Yeah
yesterday a sheriff deputy car followed me. I had to get into a left turn lane to get to my complex…it’s 20 something apartment buildings all in one community…And he or she followed me into the turn lane. I thought oh man I’m getting some kind of ticket
. Nope.As I turned into my complex no cop car behind me.
It isn’t that my life now is rough or even difficult…far from it. My only problem is these creepy things keep happening.
I got some new clothes. Then I got an email about an online account with a mid level department store. Haven’t used the account in at least a year. Locked! Too many failed log in attempts…
I was once in a neighboring state on my way to vacation. I was with my parents. A cop car was nearby at a chain restaurant. One of the cops pointed at me and said he’s a convicted felon. But…
The only thing on my record is a misdemeanor. I mean it’s a class a misdemeanor and I had to do probation etc…and it started as a felony before the plea deal…
But yeah
file under creepy incidents that happen periodically.I’m getting better at leaning into Christ to bear up under it. Scripture says nothing has happened to me that isn’t common to mankind so…
Yup
I think a lot of my problem is not knowing what the deal is? No arrests in over 10 years now no drugs in 15 years no hospitalizations in over 15 years…Maybe im just sheltered and or still naive for thinking that I could eventually settle in build a new life for myself within the limits of…everything…?
Ugh
thanks 
if I should pursue treatment now that I have coverage? Especially since I’m healthy…
real world 
? I’m better off here than anywhere else. My parents are nearby and they thankfully 
own it. I can nap later or hopefully sleep in tomorrow or..,
lol 
but…