[__ Prayer __] Blessed and tired

[Christ_empowered]

I’m 38. Tail end of age 20 I was in a private mental hospital. They over billed did involuntary shock and some kind involuntary operation…

And wanted to put me in a homeless shelter. I had just tested positive for HIV. So…

All these years later I’m living in a modest nice place thankfully owned by my family. And people are openly saying they owe the private hospital money and he should be in a group home and his family cannot help him and…

Tiring. I’m blessed and not only with material goods. I’m just…tired more do at some times than others.

I dunno Christians are put through far worse. I think it’s the loneliness and sense of oppression that are rough on me.

Thanks

 

[for_his_glory]

John 15:20 Remember the word that I said unto you, The servant is not greater than his lord. If they have persecuted me, they will also persecute you; if they have kept my saying, they will keep yours also.
John 15:21 But all these things will they do unto you for my name's sake, because they know not him that sent me.

Just remember to keep praying for your enemies and continue to show them love. You have come a long way in your walk with the Lord and just keep your focus on Him.

 

[Christ_empowered]

Thanks

 

[Christ_empowered]

Yeah…

Trying now to turn into praise, given what apparently could have happened. Man oh man…

This world is in a mess.

 

[for_his_glory]

Yeah…

Trying now to turn into praise, given what apparently could have happened. Man oh man…

This world is in a mess.

Yes, the world is in a mess, but thank God we are no longer of this world and rather to seek those Spiritual things from above.

 

[Christ_empowered]

I’ve seen that I’m still too carnal. Praying on it. And….

I don’t know what to make of my so called schizophrenia. Can’t work. Don’t really hear voices anymore. Remarkably normal in meaningful ways. And yet…

The label is applied ever more by the community less by people who actually know me. Hmmm…

And tranquilizers are basically anti thought pills lol I guess they can’t target the crazy so never ending sedation is the answer? Awesome lol

Thanks

 

[for_his_glory]

I’ve seen that I’m still too carnal. Praying on it. And….

I don’t know what to make of my so called schizophrenia. Can’t work. Don’t really hear voices anymore. Remarkably normal in meaningful ways. And yet…

The label is applied ever more by the community less by people who actually know me. Hmmm…

And tranquilizers are basically anti thought pills lol I guess they can’t target the crazy so never ending sedation is the answer? Awesome lol

Thanks

Just remember my friend..........greater is He that is in you then he (Satan) that is in the world. Continue to seek the Spiritual things from above as you are no longer carnal, but Spiritually made new again with the mind of Christ to never allow the flesh to take over the Spirit that dwells within you. When the taunting comes go find your happy place in your mind and walk away from it.

 

[Christ_empowered]

Taunting yet again. I hate it when it happens. Thankfully the alarm system hasn’t been triggered in 2 or 3 weeks now. The last time was a motion sensor on my enclosed patio. Eek I tried to be tactful when the cops called…

I was over at my parents place. I figured whoever it was wouldn’t be there anyway since it give off an alarm in addition to the monitoring company notifying th cops.so…



I’m not so paranoid after all. Fun lol

 

[Corn Pop]

You might have some issues Ian and who doesnt. I have alot of respect for your parents even I don't know them because I can see no matter what they have always been there for you and done there best and have unconditional love for you. And I know you know that as well. Just make sure you spend time and be good to your mama and dad.

 

[Christ_empowered]

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[Christ_empowered]

Saw mama and dad for Sunday dinner. Awesome

I’m…38. It’s funny how now that I’m approaching middle age…

People say I had a deep chemical peel? If only lol

Truth? I used to be fascinated by before and after pix especially deep chemical peels. They’re called phenol peels and they were first introduced by non professional women in the late 19th and early 20th centuries. In fact..

A lot of the silent film stars had them. True story. So…fascinated by how much wrinkling they can reverse and also by the sociohistorical significance. So…

Rambling. Never had one lol modern ones cost a good 6 grand. And yet…

38. I did a beer run for my parents the other day and the clerk really lingered over my ID and looked at me and then finally used the scanner in the back.

He moves in mysterious ways…