[__ Prayer __] building a (Christ-centered) life

[Christ_empowered]

OK. I"ve been truly saved a bit over 3 years. I'm now in a position to build a good life with Christ at the center. I ask that you pray that I do what it takes, take life seriously, and...well, get er done, basically.

The community looks at me and sees a total failure, which is what I was until Christ saved me. Yes, I had my reasons--people always do--but...hey, nobody cares in the world. I got saved, and now...well, I think I"m getting why people are so rough towards me. God looks at me and sees the righteousness of Christ, yet another sinner saved by grace, a work in progress. The community looks at me and sees a burn out who now looks a bit younger than his age, an oafish failure who is now intelligent and moving forward, a "mental patient" who is a bit too...(here it comes, y'all) "uppity." Uppity is now one of my absolute least favorite words, btw.

But it doesn't matter. My people love me, they've forgiven me, and so has God. I'm moving forward and now...well, I need to workout, eat better, read Scripture more often, get into a good church, and generally...well, brush everybody else off and look to Christ and Him crucified.

But its difficult. At the 1st mental hospital I was at, they needed me to internalize everything they believed about me, so they'd have staff yelling stuff while I was trying to sleep (and detoxing, btw). I was denied any counseling. I was electroshocked. On and on it goes, and the point was...YOU'RE NOTHING SPECIAL! Not playing. My neighbors occasionally yell that at me now.

Soooo...between that, round 2 of shock, and living as a stigmatized, low status person, I've got lots of stuff that only The Lord can deal with and take from me. I've often wondered...what happened when Jesus healed outcasts in the NT? The Demonized Man's community wanted Jesus gone, I remember that, but...the bleeding woman? She was a pariah, too.

I've rambled. Like I said, every loser, junkie, criminal, skid row bum, etc. has their/our reasons...Jesus cares, and that's about it. And now...well, I'm back at school, I'm healthy, I'm smart, I'm at peace with my parents...and I'm saved and set free.

So, yes...once again...please pray that I can get it all together and build a godly, decent life.

 

[Eugene]

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I've been praying for you Brother Christ_empowered. Now pick up the marching orders (1 Cor 11:1), carry the banner of Song 2:4, and eat to the full on God's word, and as you're washed in those cleansing waters we read of in Eph 5:26, That He might sanctify and cleanse it with the washing of water by the word. This is the Holy Spirit's ongoing work (Joh 16:13), you are God's work in progress (Eph 2:10).
Now I go before God's throne of grace boldly (Heb 4:16), and it's time for you to do so too expecting victories as our Father provides the needs you seek.

 

[AirDancer]

You remain in my prayers, Christ_empowered

 

[Angel]

So, we drove past Duncan Doughnuts and I thought of you.
I'll try it next month as I am broke as a joke. :D

 

[Christ_empowered]

yeah man...just wait for one of those super sales/promo events. Last summer, I was sippin' on $1 iced coffee all the time, lol.

 

[AirDancer]

I'm waiting for the Dunkin' Donuts in my area to re-open. The new owners decided to remodel the location, and it's been closed for several months now. Hopefully, it will open soon..........!

 

[Angel]

The Lord spoke to me through this song today, and I feel I should share it with you, Christ_empowered

 

[Christ_empowered]

hey, angel. Thanks for this.

I saw my psychiatrist today. For whatever reason, he books me for 30 minute sessions, not the 15 minute med checks (its a public/community mental health clinic). We talked about religion, and I see...we're approaching life from completely different angles. Kinda scary, for me as the patient. Oh well. He's good w/ the meds, I'm stable, blah blah blah.

Growing in godliness is not easy. Nor is it fun. The neighbors kept yelling about "probation violations" today. Of course, they also yell about "felony" and "public defender," so...yeah. I did see my Probation Officer today, for a second...I was paying the monthly fee a bit early. She said hey, that was that. I could've sworn I heard one of the front desk ladies at the clinic talking about probation violations. See...its stressing me out. I'm now up to smoking 2 packs daily and my sleep is off. I don't like my sleeping pills...actually, I now don't like sleeping pills in general...so I go through it. I'll sleep 2-4 hours per night and then sleep for 11, 12 hours solid some nights, and wake up rested but groggy. My body can only take so much sleep deprivation, it seems.

I'm rambling. Thanks for the video and ongoing support.

 

[Angel]

I have some advice

When the neighbors yell that you are "uppity" or "going to jail" you should ask yourself:

"Is this true?"

If it's not, stop thinking about it! Do this by turning your attention to something else. The Bible is *the* best to turn to because it is God's voice. Let us both learn to hear his small, gentle voice.

It may sting emotionally, but feelings come and go, and soon you will be at peace because the Word is life.

If this helps you, tell me about it, 'cause I want to know what God does for you.

 

[wwjd_kilden]

Hi

This isn't an area I can offer much advise in, but for the sleeping problems:
Have you tried melatonin? It comes under various names, but the active substance is melatonin, which occurs naturally in your body and controls the sleep pattern. It is not a narcotic drug so it can't make you addicted (though it can cause nightmares). Worth a try.

 

[Marianne333]

OK. I"ve been truly saved a bit over 3 years. I'm now in a position to build a good life with Christ at the center. I ask that you pray that I do what it takes, take life seriously, and...well, get er done, basically.

The community looks at me and sees a total failure, which is what I was until Christ saved me. Yes, I had my reasons--people always do--but...hey, nobody cares in the world. I got saved, and now...well, I think I"m getting why people are so rough towards me. God looks at me and sees the righteousness of Christ, yet another sinner saved by grace, a work in progress. The community looks at me and sees a burn out who now looks a bit younger than his age, an oafish failure who is now intelligent and moving forward, a "mental patient" who is a bit too...(here it comes, y'all) "uppity." Uppity is now one of my absolute least favorite words, btw.

But it doesn't matter. My people love me, they've forgiven me, and so has God. I'm moving forward and now...well, I need to workout, eat better, read Scripture more often, get into a good church, and generally...well, brush everybody else off and look to Christ and Him crucified.

But its difficult. At the 1st mental hospital I was at, they needed me to internalize everything they believed about me, so they'd have staff yelling stuff while I was trying to sleep (and detoxing, btw). I was denied any counseling. I was electroshocked. On and on it goes, and the point was...YOU'RE NOTHING SPECIAL! Not playing. My neighbors occasionally yell that at me now.

Soooo...between that, round 2 of shock, and living as a stigmatized, low status person, I've got lots of stuff that only The Lord can deal with and take from me. I've often wondered...what happened when Jesus healed outcasts in the NT? The Demonized Man's community wanted Jesus gone, I remember that, but...the bleeding woman? She was a pariah, too.

I've rambled. Like I said, every loser, junkie, criminal, skid row bum, etc. has their/our reasons...Jesus cares, and that's about it. And now...well, I'm back at school, I'm healthy, I'm smart, I'm at peace with my parents...and I'm saved and set free.

So, yes...once again...please pray that I can get it all together and build a godly, decent life.

OK. I"ve been truly saved a bit over 3 years. I'm now in a position to build a good life with Christ at the center. I ask that you pray that I do what it takes, take life seriously, and...well, get er done, basically.

The community looks at me and sees a total failure, which is what I was until Christ saved me. Yes, I had my reasons--people always do--but...hey, nobody cares in the world. I got saved, and now...well, I think I"m getting why people are so rough towards me. God looks at me and sees the righteousness of Christ, yet another sinner saved by grace, a work in progress. The community looks at me and sees a burn out who now looks a bit younger than his age, an oafish failure who is now intelligent and moving forward, a "mental patient" who is a bit too...(here it comes, y'all) "uppity." Uppity is now one of my absolute least favorite words, btw.

But it doesn't matter. My people love me, they've forgiven me, and so has God. I'm moving forward and now...well, I need to workout, eat better, read Scripture more often, get into a good church, and generally...well, brush everybody else off and look to Christ and Him crucified.

But its difficult. At the 1st mental hospital I was at, they needed me to internalize everything they believed about me, so they'd have staff yelling stuff while I was trying to sleep (and detoxing, btw). I was denied any counseling. I was electroshocked. On and on it goes, and the point was...YOU'RE NOTHING SPECIAL! Not playing. My neighbors occasionally yell that at me now.

Soooo...between that, round 2 of shock, and living as a stigmatized, low status person, I've got lots of stuff that only The Lord can deal with and take from me. I've often wondered...what happened when Jesus healed outcasts in the NT? The Demonized Man's community wanted Jesus gone, I remember that, but...the bleeding woman? She was a pariah, too.

I've rambled. Like I said, every loser, junkie, criminal, skid row bum, etc. has their/our reasons...Jesus cares, and that's about it. And now...well, I'm back at school, I'm healthy, I'm smart, I'm at peace with my parents...and I'm saved and set free.

So, yes...once again...please pray that I can get it all together and build a godly, decent life.

I am really moved by your story. It's great that now you are in school and healthy. Don't listen to any negativity from others, keep your eyes on the prize and move on with your life. You'll be in my prayers.