AngelsAmongstUs
Member
I'm tired of hearing "It's for your own good" or "We're just doing our jobs" or "Shame, poor addict". Were you there when that stinky old man put his paws all over you? Do you get nightmares and panic attacks worrying your attackers will come back? Have you been through narcissistic abuse time and time and time again? Have you been dehumanized your whole life because you're a little "different"?
Were you in a car accident at only 5 months of age that killed your mother and left your brain screwed-up for life? Did your father abandon you almost constantly, only to verbally abuse you when he WAS around occasionally? No, I don't think so. You only make a clinical diagnosis, write scripts that you don't double-check, don't ask me about WHY I am what I am; you only see the problem and not the causes.
Look at my heart, for a nice change, and STOP JUDGING ME. Stop treating me like I'm an idiot. Stop, just stop, being so self-righteous. I may be messed-up, but I'm not lesser than you. You may have had a privileged upbringing, the right schools and college, your PHD, all of it - I'll never even have a college degree. But I'm still a child of God just as you are. You're not better than me. Not all the knowledge in the world can make you understand me or give you the right to think you're better than me.
I'm still a person. You don't know all the good things I do when you're not busy playing God with your patients. I'm busy wandering among the "plebs" giving God a human form as He did when He sent Jesus to mingle with the dregs of society.
I'm never going back to another doctor or shrink or pharmacist again. I'm sure you have your part in life. I'll get over all of this by faith alone as the emotional wounds fade without your "concern".
Whatever.
Were you in a car accident at only 5 months of age that killed your mother and left your brain screwed-up for life? Did your father abandon you almost constantly, only to verbally abuse you when he WAS around occasionally? No, I don't think so. You only make a clinical diagnosis, write scripts that you don't double-check, don't ask me about WHY I am what I am; you only see the problem and not the causes.
Look at my heart, for a nice change, and STOP JUDGING ME. Stop treating me like I'm an idiot. Stop, just stop, being so self-righteous. I may be messed-up, but I'm not lesser than you. You may have had a privileged upbringing, the right schools and college, your PHD, all of it - I'll never even have a college degree. But I'm still a child of God just as you are. You're not better than me. Not all the knowledge in the world can make you understand me or give you the right to think you're better than me.
I'm still a person. You don't know all the good things I do when you're not busy playing God with your patients. I'm busy wandering among the "plebs" giving God a human form as He did when He sent Jesus to mingle with the dregs of society.
I'm never going back to another doctor or shrink or pharmacist again. I'm sure you have your part in life. I'll get over all of this by faith alone as the emotional wounds fade without your "concern".
Whatever.
