cheyisshy
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Hello. I am a 19 year old woman in college. I have lived many years of depression and anxiety, and well still do.
I remember years ago, I was about 13. I was in a deep depression one night, far deeper than anyone, let alone a 13 year old should go through. Suicidal ideation was a huge part of it in particular. Then, I randomly thought of the Lord. I was crying, and in desperation came knocking to his door with minimal belief that it would do anything. My parents are lukewarm Christians at most, and I've only ever started attending church in recent times, so it really was out of the blue and I was basically atheist.
I don't know exactly how I was led to the feeling I came to, but a sensation of pure love washed over me and comforted me. I was shocked if I remember right, I really had no real belief that anything would happen. Sadly, I did not reflect much on this experience after it happened, and became full on an atheist years later.
But here I am. I have not had that same strong feeling yet, but I do feel the Lord. It is a bit scary, I'll be honest. I have many things to work through. I feel almost a bit ashamed. But here I am. I'm attending church weekly and will be offering my volunteer services for work my church does tomorrow. I have had trouble making new friends, but I hope to find some Godly ones in my church and other places.
I remember years ago, I was about 13. I was in a deep depression one night, far deeper than anyone, let alone a 13 year old should go through. Suicidal ideation was a huge part of it in particular. Then, I randomly thought of the Lord. I was crying, and in desperation came knocking to his door with minimal belief that it would do anything. My parents are lukewarm Christians at most, and I've only ever started attending church in recent times, so it really was out of the blue and I was basically atheist.
I don't know exactly how I was led to the feeling I came to, but a sensation of pure love washed over me and comforted me. I was shocked if I remember right, I really had no real belief that anything would happen. Sadly, I did not reflect much on this experience after it happened, and became full on an atheist years later.
But here I am. I have not had that same strong feeling yet, but I do feel the Lord. It is a bit scary, I'll be honest. I have many things to work through. I feel almost a bit ashamed. But here I am. I'm attending church weekly and will be offering my volunteer services for work my church does tomorrow. I have had trouble making new friends, but I hope to find some Godly ones in my church and other places.
and pray for his guidance in your life . No need to feel ashamed 
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