Christ_empowered
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I'm officially diagnosed with Bipolar I w/psychosis. I dunno...at any rate, I take meds, and they do the job, mostly. The problem now is rebuilding my family relationships (my dad only recently seems to have forgiven me for...well, my misspent youth, basically...) and building a meaningful, productive life.
Some symptoms remain, and there's not a whole lot anybody can do about it. I hear voices, but they're mild, weirdly muffled, and not threatening or anything, and related to my past and also things I mull over, so I don't freak out too much about it. The intensity and frequency have both gone down several notches over the past...6 months or so...and I'm blessed. Adding a drug for depression helped a lot, but I think a lot of it is Christ's direct work in my life and mind.
Its just...well, its this "recovery" thing, I guess. I was sick, physically and mentally, to the core for a while. Now, I'm healthy, thanks to Christ. I just have some remaining issues that I have to contend with, that's all.
I'm hoping and praying that my problems continue to get better. I used to view psychiatry as the enemy, largely because of the terrible (mis)treatment I received when I was younger. Now...I don't know...there is no 1 "psychiatry," just as there is no 1 type of "psychiatrist." I was a different person back then, and I don't go to those "professionals" now. Psychiatry isn't the enemy for any Christian; our fight is not against flesh and blood, but against powers and principalities. Having said that, I'm not gung-ho about being a lifelong relationship w/ Mental Health, Inc, lol.
Ugh. I'm...blessed. Once again, this is both a Praise and a prayer request. I was sick to the core, I mean...sick in a way that few people are, at least not many people who are in mainstream society in any capacity. People like me are usually "dealt with," one way or another...
Praise God for saving and restoring me, of all people (or then again...why not me, or why not you?), and making me whole and healthy enough to move forward in life. Still, I get stuck in my head with these remaining voices and looping thoughts. Its not terrible--did I mention the med cocktail?--but I really want freedom, or at least better coping skills.
Thanks.
Some symptoms remain, and there's not a whole lot anybody can do about it. I hear voices, but they're mild, weirdly muffled, and not threatening or anything, and related to my past and also things I mull over, so I don't freak out too much about it. The intensity and frequency have both gone down several notches over the past...6 months or so...and I'm blessed. Adding a drug for depression helped a lot, but I think a lot of it is Christ's direct work in my life and mind.
Its just...well, its this "recovery" thing, I guess. I was sick, physically and mentally, to the core for a while. Now, I'm healthy, thanks to Christ. I just have some remaining issues that I have to contend with, that's all.
I'm hoping and praying that my problems continue to get better. I used to view psychiatry as the enemy, largely because of the terrible (mis)treatment I received when I was younger. Now...I don't know...there is no 1 "psychiatry," just as there is no 1 type of "psychiatrist." I was a different person back then, and I don't go to those "professionals" now. Psychiatry isn't the enemy for any Christian; our fight is not against flesh and blood, but against powers and principalities. Having said that, I'm not gung-ho about being a lifelong relationship w/ Mental Health, Inc, lol.
Ugh. I'm...blessed. Once again, this is both a Praise and a prayer request. I was sick to the core, I mean...sick in a way that few people are, at least not many people who are in mainstream society in any capacity. People like me are usually "dealt with," one way or another...
Praise God for saving and restoring me, of all people (or then again...why not me, or why not you?), and making me whole and healthy enough to move forward in life. Still, I get stuck in my head with these remaining voices and looping thoughts. Its not terrible--did I mention the med cocktail?--but I really want freedom, or at least better coping skills.
Thanks.
