Hello, my name's Sam & I was Christened as a child. (audience applauds)
I'm only trying to lighten the mood with poor humour because I feel like I'm about to share a bleak realisation that you may be unable to justify, but I hope I'm wrong of course.
Several years ago I needed to earn some money in a short space of time. I'm fortunate to be good at recognising patterns, so decided that I would watch dealers at online roulette tables.
One evening I noticed that the dealer was giving signals for what the upcoming result was going to be by tapping certain parts of her hand. After becoming aware that the games were being fixed, I then proceeded to document the cheating occurring at other tables owned by the same company, then did the same for another online betting company.
I felt like me stumbling across this operation, having had little to no previous interest in gambling, whilst being the sort of person who feels morally obliged to do what I can to bring it to a stop & having the ability to do so was all too much of coincidence IE that there must have been some external influence.
I have previously sent the information I had collected to the relevant authorities, who I later discovered have links with members of the gambling industry, hence no action has been taken despite the evidence being impossible to argue against.
I also discovered that the slot games on the gambling sites were fixed to pay big wins to new accounts with the aim of luring them in & was recently finishing off gathering my evidence. On the final site on my list of what was necessary for success, the instance did not occur.
I have always put money I won along the way back into the betting companies as it just came from problem gamblers & I felt it wasn't mine to keep.
Ultimately it seems to have been a huge waste of time & has cost me financially for trying to do what I deemed to be a noble cause which "couldn't have been a coincidence", but twice in succession I felt as though I had been tricked into doing something that I believed was right & then slapped in the face before a finish line which didn't exist.
This leads me to ask the question;
Do we attribute things that are hard to believe as luck.or coincidence to being the work of God when it is in fact our own way of justifying them?
And does it not make more sense for our creator to be unbiased with regard to anything that occurs amongst humans, with our stories of God being nothing more than a way of maintaining order amongst ourselves?
I suppose I'm looking for a reason to have any faith in "God" after what's happened but I've already pretty much decided that if there is a God he/she/it is a C***, which I have told them multiple times since.
I'm only trying to lighten the mood with poor humour because I feel like I'm about to share a bleak realisation that you may be unable to justify, but I hope I'm wrong of course.
Several years ago I needed to earn some money in a short space of time. I'm fortunate to be good at recognising patterns, so decided that I would watch dealers at online roulette tables.
One evening I noticed that the dealer was giving signals for what the upcoming result was going to be by tapping certain parts of her hand. After becoming aware that the games were being fixed, I then proceeded to document the cheating occurring at other tables owned by the same company, then did the same for another online betting company.
I felt like me stumbling across this operation, having had little to no previous interest in gambling, whilst being the sort of person who feels morally obliged to do what I can to bring it to a stop & having the ability to do so was all too much of coincidence IE that there must have been some external influence.
I have previously sent the information I had collected to the relevant authorities, who I later discovered have links with members of the gambling industry, hence no action has been taken despite the evidence being impossible to argue against.
I also discovered that the slot games on the gambling sites were fixed to pay big wins to new accounts with the aim of luring them in & was recently finishing off gathering my evidence. On the final site on my list of what was necessary for success, the instance did not occur.
I have always put money I won along the way back into the betting companies as it just came from problem gamblers & I felt it wasn't mine to keep.
Ultimately it seems to have been a huge waste of time & has cost me financially for trying to do what I deemed to be a noble cause which "couldn't have been a coincidence", but twice in succession I felt as though I had been tricked into doing something that I believed was right & then slapped in the face before a finish line which didn't exist.
This leads me to ask the question;
Do we attribute things that are hard to believe as luck.or coincidence to being the work of God when it is in fact our own way of justifying them?
And does it not make more sense for our creator to be unbiased with regard to anything that occurs amongst humans, with our stories of God being nothing more than a way of maintaining order amongst ourselves?
I suppose I'm looking for a reason to have any faith in "God" after what's happened but I've already pretty much decided that if there is a God he/she/it is a C***, which I have told them multiple times since.