Don't wait to repent

[dave91]

I am an apostate and I can't come to Jesus anymore. I lost my chance (Hebrews 4:1). I'm getting worse and worse. I passed the point of no return and I can no longer believe, no longer repent, no longer being free from my sins, no longer do any good work, no longer love God and receive His love, I'm just nothing. I'm just expecting fearfully the Judgement Day. The only reason why God keeps me alive is to use me to show people what happens if you keep sinning willfully without repenting. If you go on and on and on, there will come a point where you're not gonna be able repent, even if you realise your wretchedness and want to repent. 2 Peter 2:20.

I'm not expecting any reply. I don't want a pity party. I am not to be pitied. I am extremely evil and I got just what I deserve. I chose death, I chose darkness, that's exactly what I get. It's REALLY over for me. I tried anything, there's nothing I can do. I'm just bound to sin forever. That's what I chose. I just didn't expect that I would not be able to turn away from that path when I'd want to. Yes there's a too late.

 

[Zeth4500]

sounds like a decision you have made for yourself, sinning more is worse than sinning less- or not sinning at all, you may live the rest of your life in shame but it will still aid you in your next life- since you now know wrong you will be able to easily go against your old ways- beyond too far beyond is not something i have heard of before, i respectfully believe you just want to keep on sinning.

 

[dave91]

sounds like a decision you have made for yourself, sinning more is worse than sinning less- or not sinning at all, you may live the rest of your life in shame but it will still aid you in your next life- since you now know wrong you will be able to easily go against your old ways- beyond too far beyond is not something i have heard of before, i respectfully believe you just want to keep on sinning.

Sorry, I didn't understand all your message. Can you reformulate ?

I don't know if I still want to sin. I don't sin, and I try not to, but maybe yes that's what I want.

 

[Hopeful]

I am an apostate and I can't come to Jesus anymore. I lost my chance (Hebrews 4:1). I'm getting worse and worse. I passed the point of no return and I can no longer believe, no longer repent, no longer being free from my sins, no longer do any good work, no longer love God and receive His love, I'm just nothing. I'm just expecting fearfully the Judgement Day. The only reason why God keeps me alive is to use me to show people what happens if you keep sinning willfully without repenting. If you go on and on and on, there will come a point where you're not gonna be able repent, even if you realise your wretchedness and want to repent. 2 Peter 2:20.

I'm not expecting any reply. I don't want a pity party. I am not to be pitied. I am extremely evil and I got just what I deserve. I chose death, I chose darkness, that's exactly what I get. It's REALLY over for me. I tried anything, there's nothing I can do. I'm just bound to sin forever. That's what I chose. I just didn't expect that I would not be able to turn away from that path when I'd want to. Yes there's a too late.

Why not just repent of sin now?
(And of course get water baptized in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of past sins.)
What keeps you from doing that?

 

[dave91]

Why not just repent of sin now?
(And of course get water baptized in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of past sins.)
What keeps you from doing that?

I can't. I've been trying for 7 months but I can't. I still love my sin. I'm a slave to it. I'm so hooked that I don't even know if I really want to be free from that sin, even if it destroys me. I used to say that I want, but I will stop saying anything about my intents since I'm so deceived. I abstain from sinning, but it's just because of fear. And from time to time, I still sin.

 

[JRoss6]

I am an apostate and I can't come to Jesus anymore. I lost my chance (Hebrews 4:1). I'm getting worse and worse. I passed the point of no return and I can no longer believe, no longer repent, no longer being free from my sins, no longer do any good work, no longer love God and receive His love, I'm just nothing. I'm just expecting fearfully the Judgement Day. The only reason why God keeps me alive is to use me to show people what happens if you keep sinning willfully without repenting. If you go on and on and on, there will come a point where you're not gonna be able repent, even if you realise your wretchedness and want to repent. 2 Peter 2:20.

I'm not expecting any reply. I don't want a pity party. I am not to be pitied. I am extremely evil and I got just what I deserve. I chose death, I chose darkness, that's exactly what I get. It's REALLY over for me. I tried anything, there's nothing I can do. I'm just bound to sin forever. That's what I chose. I just didn't expect that I would not be able to turn away from that path when I'd want to. Yes there's a too late.

Man I’m in the same exact boat. It’s awful.

 

[Hopeful]

I can't. I've been trying for 7 months but I can't. I still love my sin. I'm a slave to it. I'm so hooked that I don't even know if I really want to be free from that sin, even if it destroys me. I used to say that I want, but I will stop saying anything about my intents since I'm so deceived. I abstain from sinning, but it's just because of fear. And from time to time, I still sin.

That is just it, you can repent.
God gives His Spirit to those who turn from sin, (Acts 2:38), and words like this..."There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it." (1 Cor 10:13)
Look for the escapes !

 

[dave91]

If i keep falling into the same sin, doesn't that mean that I haven't had repent ? And I CANNOT stop having sexual thoughts. I guess that means that I'm not willing to renounce COMPLETELY my sexual

That is just it, you can repent.
God gives His Spirit to those who turn from sin, (Acts 2:38), and words like this..."There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it." (1 Cor 10:13)
Look for the escapes !

i keep falling into the same sin. Doesn't that mean that I haven't had repent ? And I CANNOT stop having sexual thoughts. I guess that means that I'm not willing to renounce COMPLETELY my sexual lusts.

 

[WIP]

If i keep falling into the same sin, doesn't that mean that I haven't had repent ? And I CANNOT stop having sexual thoughts. I guess that means that I'm not willing to renounce COMPLETELY my sexual


i keep falling into the same sin. Doesn't that mean that I haven't had repent ? And I CANNOT stop having sexual thoughts. I guess that means that I'm not willing to renounce COMPLETELY my sexual lusts.

We all continue to repeat sin. Every time we do we go to the Lord in humility asking Him for forgiveness. We pray for healing, but it may take time. Sometimes the Lord will lead us somewhere where others may help us heal too. Like the analogy I read of a man that was trapped on his roof after a flood and when a guy comes by in a boat he refuses to be rescued saying that God will help him. A helicopter comes by and again he sends them away saying that God will rescue him. Eventually he dies and he meets God and asks why He didn't rescue him. God replied that He sent a boat and a helicopter, what else should He have done?

If you expect a one and done solution, you may be disappointed. Scripture says we are to be persistent in prayer (Luke 18:1-8) and not lean on our own understanding but trust in the Lord (Proverbs 3:5-6).

 

[Hidden In Him]

I am an apostate and I can't come to Jesus anymore. I lost my chance (Hebrews 4:1). I'm getting worse and worse. I passed the point of no return and I can no longer believe, no longer repent, no longer being free from my sins, no longer do any good work, no longer love God and receive His love, I'm just nothing. I'm just expecting fearfully the Judgement Day. The only reason why God keeps me alive is to use me to show people what happens if you keep sinning willfully without repenting. If you go on and on and on, there will come a point where you're not gonna be able repent, even if you realise your wretchedness and want to repent. 2 Peter 2:20.

I'm not expecting any reply. I don't want a pity party. I am not to be pitied. I am extremely evil and I got just what I deserve. I chose death, I chose darkness, that's exactly what I get. It's REALLY over for me. I tried anything, there's nothing I can do. I'm just bound to sin forever. That's what I chose. I just didn't expect that I would not be able to turn away from that path when I'd want to. Yes there's a too late.

Theologically speaking... you need to return this bill of goods to whoever sold it to you. And never do business with them again.

 

[Highway54]

I am an apostate and I can't come to Jesus anymore. I lost my chance (Hebrews 4:1). I'm getting worse and worse. I passed the point of no return and I can no longer believe, no longer repent, no longer being free from my sins, no longer do any good work, no longer love God and receive His love, I'm just nothing. I'm just expecting fearfully the Judgement Day. The only reason why God keeps me alive is to use me to show people what happens if you keep sinning willfully without repenting. If you go on and on and on, there will come a point where you're not gonna be able repent, even if you realise your wretchedness and want to repent. 2 Peter 2:20.

I'm not expecting any reply. I don't want a pity party. I am not to be pitied. I am extremely evil and I got just what I deserve. I chose death, I chose darkness, that's exactly what I get. It's REALLY over for me. I tried anything, there's nothing I can do. I'm just bound to sin forever. That's what I chose. I just didn't expect that I would not be able to turn away from that path when I'd want to. Yes there's a too late.

Hi Dave, perhaps you are familiar with Jesus' words that the only sin that has no repentance is sin against the holy spirit. Now it is true that if you left the faith and you were an anointed Christian that there is no redemption for you as shown at Heb 6:4-6, but why do you believe you were one of them sir? Out of the thousands of faiths that claim to be Christian you would have had to be with the one faith, and born again as well. Please explain why you think you found that faith, and that God anointed you, because the odds are incredibly in your favor.

 

[Zeth4500]

Sorry, I didn't understand all your message. Can you reformulate ?

I don't know if I still want to sin. I don't sin, and I try not to, but maybe yes that's what I want.

you need to settle on one or the other, engage in electroshock therapy-similar torture if you must and importantly associate yourself with good people that can keep you a bit in check as well

 

[Hopeful]

i keep falling into the same sin. Doesn't that mean that I haven't had repent ?

It means you didn't really "turn from" the sin.

And I CANNOT stop having sexual thoughts. I guess that means that I'm not willing to renounce COMPLETELY my sexual lusts.

Have you nothing else with which to occupy your mind?
Ever try memorizing bible chapters?
Your mind is at your disposal.
You are not at your mind's disposal.

Who is "driving the car"?

 

[dave91]

It means you didn't really "turn from" the sin.

Have you nothing else with which to occupy your mind?
Ever try memorizing bible chapters?
Your mind is at your disposal.
You are not at your mind's disposal.

Who is "driving the car"?

Not really because i'm dead so there is nothing that stimulates me in this life anymore. My thoughts are all about my relationship with God and the hope that by a big miracle I can be fixed. I wish I could serve other people, but it's very hard to when you are that down. I often think about suicide as well, but obviously I won't do that because I know what awaits me.

 

[dave91]

Spring has come. Normally, it always get me in a super good mood. Now it's the opposite. I can't bear that sun, it makes me even more depressed. I'm always looking forward for the sun to go down. I wish it could be dark always.

Sometimes I sincerely wonder if I should just end it, even if I know where I'm going after. I'm still here just for the comfort, but what's the point of living at this point ? The longer I live, the more I'm storing up a vessel of wrath for myself. And I'm just a burden for my family.

All that started 10 months ago. I would NEVER ever ever thought I could be in that state. I used to think I was beyond everything but God Gave me my lesson.

 

[Zeth4500]

Spring has come. Normally, it always get me in a super good mood. Now it's the opposite. I can't bear that sun, it makes me even more depressed. I'm always looking forward for the sun to go down. I wish it could be dark always.

Sometimes I sincerely wonder if I should just end it, even if I know where I'm going after. I'm still here just for the comfort, but what's the point of living at this point ? The longer I live, the more I'm storing up a vessel of wrath for myself. And I'm just a burden for my family.

All that started 10 months ago. I would NEVER ever ever thought I could be in that state. I used to think I was beyond everything but God Gave me my lesson.

what effort have you put in to divert yourself from this path?

 

[dave91]

what effort have you put in to divert yourself from this path?

Cried out to God many times, spending time with Him, asking Him to change my heart, attending church. But I guess God knows my heart and He see there's nothing good in my motives. He knows me better than myself so I won't complain about Him not helping me.

 

[Hopeful]

Not really because i'm dead so there is nothing that stimulates me in this life anymore. My thoughts are all about my relationship with God and the hope that by a big miracle I can be fixed. I wish I could serve other people, but it's very hard to when you are that down. I often think about suicide as well, but obviously I won't do that because I know what awaits me.

Do you know who is in control of you?
YOU !
Get a job, take a class, volunteer at a food bank, pick up trash along a highway, visit an orphanage, take some board games to an old folks home,...
There is so much that needs to be done to help our neighbors, so moaning and complaining are beyond comprehension.
Get busy and start thinking about others before yourself.

 

[Zeth4500]

Cried out to God many times, spending time with Him, asking Him to change my heart, attending church. But I guess God knows my heart and He see there's nothing good in my motives. He knows me better than myself so I won't complain about Him not helping me.

if you really think your life is pointless and cursed i would advice you to get a dangerous job, maybe sign up for the army and get a natural death. if god wills it then you will be out soon and into your next life, if you dont then god probably has some plan with you, and until then you just wanna play it safe and not sin- did you stay completely free of sin in this time where you tried to connect with god? i still get this feeling that you were trying but couldnt - hence asking for assistance
selfcontrol is something you gotta build, and, maybe you have a hormone issue. do you eat trash food, do you take drugs that would cripple your natural hormones?

 

[dave91]

if you really think your life is pointless and cursed i would advice you to get a dangerous job, maybe sign up for the army and get a natural death. if god wills it then you will be out soon and into your next life, if you dont then god probably has some plan with you, and until then you just wanna play it safe and not sin- did you stay completely free of sin in this time where you tried to connect with god? i still get this feeling that you were trying but couldnt - hence asking for assistance
selfcontrol is something you gotta build, and, maybe you have a hormone issue. do you eat trash food, do you take drugs that would cripple your natural hormones?

That's a good idea but frankly I don't have any energy to make all the procedures to get into the army and I'm not sure my fitness level would pass the test. I keep hoping for the Apocalypse to come soon. God's plan for me I think is to use me to show people what can happen if you "play with sin", how wretched you can become.

I haven't totally stopped my gross regular sins, but almost. I quitted smoking, I quited drinking, and I went from masturbating every night to only once every two or three weeks. I control my sex drive much more, but I still have sexual thoughts sometime. It's those sexual sins that I just don't see how I could overcome them one day. It will not be possible on my own actually. Apart from that I try to make good things, to love people, but I'm not driven by the H.S so there's nothing good I do actually.