LaMexicana
Member
I've realized this. My daughter is a rude, bratty bully and since I'm the only one raising her, it's nobody's fault but mine. She talks back, she's mean, she does things she's told not to do as soon as she's told not to do them, she hits, kicks and pushes kids. My kid is horrible. And the truth is, I know she's not. She's a very sensitive, caring child but has changed a lot in the past few months. Even the parents at her school are complaining about her.
And I am feeling a lot of guilt because it's all my fault. The truth is that after I get home from work, I check out mentally. I do the minimum. I go through the motions but it's like I'm not present and I don't have the patience or energy to offer her anything else. And I feel absolutely horrible saying that. I feel like a selfish person. When I get home, I just want to be left alone and I want peace and quiet and by now, I should understand that's not part of the deal of single parenting. I have to be present and ready and I can honeslty say that I hate that. I hate that I have to remain alert and that once I leave my stressful job, I have to continue on to another stresfful job. It's never ending. And I'm completely failing at it. Now I have to fix what I broke.
And I am feeling a lot of guilt because it's all my fault. The truth is that after I get home from work, I check out mentally. I do the minimum. I go through the motions but it's like I'm not present and I don't have the patience or energy to offer her anything else. And I feel absolutely horrible saying that. I feel like a selfish person. When I get home, I just want to be left alone and I want peace and quiet and by now, I should understand that's not part of the deal of single parenting. I have to be present and ready and I can honeslty say that I hate that. I hate that I have to remain alert and that once I leave my stressful job, I have to continue on to another stresfful job. It's never ending. And I'm completely failing at it. Now I have to fix what I broke.