Feel as though i lived the story of isrealites betrayal

[dia900]

I was in the most heart wrenching situation. I went through the wilderness of heartbreak and then betrayal on her part, but i wanted to exhibit the power of LOVE, forgiveness, and friendship. Turns out I was in a battle with a sociopath who i wanted to help but she wanted me to fail. My heart trembled at the thought of facing her and her accomplices, some of whom were my friends, I listened to GOD and leaped in to face my enemy face to face, i never viewed her as my enemy, but only the situation. I stood strong, i loved her, forgave her, allowed her to seduce my friend. Then one day, i was afraid to hear what she had to say, afraid of the pain she had already unleashed on me dozens of times. That day i said i couldnt win, i had fear. Even though i had seen god's work but just hadnt accepted or processed it...( she had respected my apparent fearlessness and unwavering love) but i had doubts. I walked away that day, not with victory in sight, but victory in my hands but i didnt see it and allowed fear to enter my heart. Since that day, i have not been the same, she saw my weakness and turned on me again, my job lost its securedness, and i am afraid i betrayed god and am destined for long and painful repurcussions for my betrayal. Actually maybe more imporyantly i let her down, seeing faith in action may have been the sociopaths lone rescue from that life of selfishness and non love, i let her down big time. Question to you all is, am i destined for dire consequences for my betrayal or is this a way to help my faith grow stronger? I realize what i did, and have prayed for forgiveness, but my heart still aches.

 

[for_his_glory]

When we have done all we can do through the Lord for the situation we are in and there is no longer anything else we can do then it becomes time to decide whether to walk away knowing we have done everything and just give the situation over to the Lord. If we feel the need for God to forgive us for leaving then know that you are forgiven and even though it is hard to do you have to move on with your life.

I went through a similar situation with my ex years ago as after we said our I Do's he turned into the personification of Satan and all hell was let loose in our marriage. Do I stay or should I go. If I stay I know he will kill me, but should I keep relying on God for him to change and stay, or should I flee for my own life. I gave it to the Lord for what I needed to do and God made a way for me to flee when I had no way to do so.

You did not betray her, she betrayed you by leaving you for her friends. It's almost like my ex had two personalities as he loved me one minute and the next out of nowhere he would come after me. One time I even looked him in the eyes when he went through one of his rages and rebuked Satan out of him. It worked for that night, but he allowed Satan to enter in again and again and there was nothing more I could do, but to leave him. I don't know if he is alive or dead anymore, but I do still pray for him even though we are miles and states apart from each other and will never see each other again. Just know who you are in Christ and everything else will fall in place for you.

 

[dia900]

Thanks for the positive words. Sounds like you know the type of experience i went through. Unless people experience it, it seems hard for them to understand fully what its like. I'm glad you are going on with your life with god as your guide, and i hope he has found some kind of peace in his heart. thanks again